08/07/2020
Body Positivity β‘
After gaining 6 kilos on a five week euro trip, my boyfriend told me I was 'morbid obese'.
I was 65kg, about 5 kilos more than I am now. I knew what I weighed then because I had to weigh my luggage on my Nan's scales she had in her bathroom for my flight home. I know what I weigh now because I've been using the scales during a fitness course I've been doing this year. Otherwise, I don't usually use the scales or know what I weigh. I will not be defined by numbers.
I didn't feel comfortable in a bikini for over a year and my self esteem was non existent. He convinced me to go on Light n Easy, train with a personal trainer three to four times a week and weigh myself almost daily ..to check my body fat percent. Which usually ended up in an argument ππ₯±
When I started feeling sexy, stronger and confident again, he would put me down. But it was all good, because he just wanted me to 'better myself' and was only 'trying to help me'.
Ten years later, he is a distant memory. I have become a pilates and fitness trainer. I feel fit and great, even with a tad of pudding added during covid ππ I am comfortable in my own skin and I love my body.
It can be really hard as a female to get to the point of no return in self love and body acceptance and awareness. To believe that you are enough and that you can achieve any goals you put your mind to.
Today, I thank this particular ex boyfriend (yes, we can say it, he's a do*****ag) for introducing me to the gym and weight training. I had always kept fit and been active, but had never joined a gym before. My PT was great, I learnt a lot and have maintained my fitness on another level since ππͺ
There is a positive in every negative and as hard as it may be, especially in today's society and online social realm, it's up to you to believe in yourself. Learn and grow from good and bad experiences, don't ever let anyone get into your head about yourself.. and dump the do*****ag π―
It's you vs you β‘