Jesse Lynne Fit

Ho ho home for the holidays
Felske Christmas 2024 🤍🎄

Walking in a winter wonderland ❄️☃️

I love those moments when I realize that I’m handing situations better than my past self would have handled them.

I love conversations with myself when I realized that all the self work, hard moments and discipline has been working.

I love realizing that I’ve grown.

I’m a pumpkin spice anytime of the year kind of girlie but it does taste better when the trees are turning colours & the air is crispy

In my healthy girl era. ✨

My eat enough food, get enough rest and take care of myself for me era.

Rewriting my own narrative era.

Learning to be kind to myself era.

6 hard months of building back a relationship with myself. Allowing myself the ability to feel comfortable in eating more food, rest when I’m tired and learning that my worth is not defined by my body fat percentage.

I’ve been working hard to rewrite the narrative in my head that I’ve told myself for the last several years. It is okay to rest, to slow down, to take it all in. One missed workout is not going to kill me and if I have an extra scoop of rice no one is going to notice, I’m not going to get chubby from it.

It’s been a hard realization that my inability to have a nurturing relationship with myself in the past and properly taking care of my health has bled onto others.

It’s only been 6 months and the hardest thing right now is for me to understand that it’s going to take some time to get back to a healthy baseline. It’s been a build up of many years that has put my body in this state. It won’t be an over night change but it’ll be change that future Jess will be grateful for.

This might be one of the most uncomfortable growth periods but like they say you never grow and evolve inside your comfort zone.

Missing you ladies 🤍 .c.fit

Say Cheeeese 📸
Just some sisters and their fur babies

Self made with GRIT
Worlds best team & family 🤍

Quite honestly wearing shorts to the gym is one of my biggest fears. I don’t know when it started but it’s a thing. Especially when I’m not near as lean as I’ve been.

I can successfully say that I’ve worn shorts to the gym 3 times in the past week. Started with wearing joggers over and finally I just said to myself. “Grow up let’s go, and it’s really not as bad as I thought”

I’m not sure what I imagined. People laughing at the cellulite on the back of my legs I guess or maybe just my insecurity with my quite quads.

We’re the hardest critics on ourselves and sometimes we just have to buck up but also be kinder.

My coach says to me “Jess, not to be blunt but you find confidence in lighting”

At first I was a bit confused, I had to read the line over a few times. And the more I read it the more it sunk in, I do. I find confidence in the “ideal lighting” where my muscles look a certain way, the shadows work in my favour and the highlights sit where they’re supposed to.

I’ve been working with my coach the last few months to get my calories up, reduce my crazy food focus and essentially build myself a healthier foundation for the rest of my life. This comes with its struggles of course, as any life change does. I’ve gained weight, my body isn’t actually sure if it’s hungry or it’s habit, I’m rewiring my brain to understand that killing myself at the gym 6 days a week is not always beneficial, sleeping 5 hours isn’t a vibe and resting doesn’t make me lazy.

But most importantly I’m learning to not put my self worth in my physique. I’m not sure at what point I came to the conclusion that if I am not a lean bean that I am unworthy of being loved, achieving more or going places in life.

There is nothing easy about this process and quite often I find myself wanting to quit to go back to that comfort zone. But like they say you can’t grow where you’re comfortable.

I’ve been learning a lot about how to manage negative thoughts and to focus on how choices today will impact the future. That being uncomfortable now is just temporary, not a forever thing.