I have thought long and hard about posting this extremely personal information online. I have not taken this decision lightly.
It is with deep, incredible sadness and distress that I post the following........
I am doing this for awareness and because the ‘justice’ system and the Police have let me (and others) down catastrophically.
I have to get some justice and closure, to try and heal and to recover from the almighty hell I have faced.
On the 26th April 2019, I made a formal disclosure that ☆☆☆ ROBERT WITCHELL☆ ☆☆ my biological ‘father’ had sexually abused me from the age of 12 years old to 16/17.
It took all the strength and courage I had to take this step....
I believed in the justice system, I was naïve to think that they and the police would help me to hold ROBERT WITCHELL to account.
ROBERT WITCHELL was CHARGED with ☆☆☆ 9 counts of r**e of a child ☆☆☆
The first trial was September 2020; - on the 2nd day, there was a disagreement regarding some evidence and ROBERT WITCHELL dismissed his defence team which meant that the trial could not continue.
The next trial was June 2021. The jury were unable to reach a verdict. I was devastated. ROBERT WITCHELL IS
☆☆☆ GUILTY of CHILD ABUSE ☆☆☆
The jury could not reach a verdict, but that does NOT mean he is innocent.
He is NOT - he destroyed my life.
I now suffer from hideous anxiety and complex PTSD. I live my life thinking about what might have been if ROBERT WITCHELL had not r**ed me repeatedly.
I swore on oath; - on the Bible, when I gave evidence - I was HONEST through the entire, hideous process.
I would NEVER have gone through the hell of 1 trial, let alone 3 If I was lying.
I have NEVER lied; - I have NO reason to.
☆☆ ROBERT WITCHELL R***D ME when I was just a child. ☆☆
WITCHELL destroyed me. I recall thinking what is happening, is this normal? I was terrified, I remember being in horrendous pain and not able to tell anyone.
When I gave evidence on oath, I had to endure the trauma of re-living the horrific incidents, the feelings of helplessness, the hideous pain, the uncontrollable fear, the trauma, being scared out of my mind.
I wanted so desperately to tell someone, I wanted so badly for him to stop hurting me.
.... I was in turmoil and absolutely terrified. WITCHELL told me If anyone found-out, the most precious thing in the World would be taken away...... “My mother would kill him and I would have no-one”.
ROBERT WITCHELL repeated those threats and I believed him.
I was a child, I was in turmoil, upset and so confused.
I remember being confused and upset, trying to hide the horror from everyone, believing that no-one must ever find out.
I thought why does it hurt so much? Is this what’s supposed to happen between a father-daughter? I was a small child. WITCHELL hurt me laying on top of me, his weight on me.
I suffered cystitis all the time when I was a child, ROBERT WITCHELL made me bleed, I was always sore.
ROBERT WITCHELL took my childhood away from me and destroyed my ability to be happy as an adult.
I have severe anxiety and PTSD. I live my life thinking about what I might have been if it had not happened.
I have nightmares of him on top of me, waking up in terror seeing his face, shaking, bathed in sweat and crying, believing it is happening again.
When I was 17 I went to Cardiff Royal Infirmary to get HIV & STD tests because ROBERT WITCHELL was constantly boasting about all the women he was with.
HIV was a death sentence back then, those of you old enough will recall the hideous advert with the black tombstone.
I see that tombstone in my nightmares with ROBERT WITCHELL standing next to it. I wake up in fear thinking I’ve died of HIV.
The next trial was September 2021.
I gave evidence a third time, re-living the pain and trauma; crying whilst I was giving evidence.
I was scared because ROBERT WITCHELL was in the courtroom again, but at the same time I was determined to hold him to account and to make him see all the suffering he caused and the jury to see I was honest.
I did everything I could to hold ROBERT WITCHELL to account, to make him face the punishment he deserves, but the justice system ☆☆ FAILED ☆☆
The jury could not reach a decision a second time.
The Police did not get all the evidence that was required; - they FAILED to follow up enquiries and get statements etc - ☆ they FAILED, the Court FAILED and the CPS FAILED ☆
Those who know me know I was born and brought up in Gilfach Goch.
My family on the maternal side are good, honest, lovely people.
Those who knew my wonderful grandparents; who were well respected in the small village, know that I was brought up well. I was a much loved only child and grandchild.
I could have been anything I wanted to be, my life before me.
After ROBERT WITCHELL abused me, I became withdrawn, naughty, isolated.
I couldn’t cope, I did not know how to reach out for help, I didn’t know how to put into words what was happening to me.........I was lost.
I became rebellious and I argued with my mother. ROBERT WITCHELL even took my relationship with my mother away from me.
It has taken me 35 years to realise it was not my mother’s fault, it was not mine…… It was the CHILD ABUSER and evil, sick monster that is ROBERT WITCHELL.
ROBERT WITCHELL is a danger to women and to Children everywhere (he is an alcoholic and he is violet to Christine Jones; his partner….... I was told this by Christine’s daughter via FB messenger]
The Crown Prosecution Service have decided that they will NOT have a 3rd trial because they don’t believe it is serious enough.
How more serious can it get than a child ra**st???
They have let a child ra**st walk free with no consequences. This Is ‘justice’.
It was absolute horror being r**ed as a young girl and the CPS say it doesn’t meet the criteria for another trial???
I cannot explain how broken I am; - how horrendous it has been fighting the pain, having to cope with 3 trials because I was so determined that the child ra**st should get the punishment he deserves.
I trusted the system to give me justice, to help me re-build, to give me peace, they ALL FAILED abysmally.
How do I move on, find closure, heal when you have fought a long battle alone and not been supported?? How do I find closure knowing ROBERT WITCHELL has got away with ruining my life?
☆☆ EVERYTHING I have said to the police, the CPS, the courts and on here is the TRUTH, absolutely the TRUTH ☆☆
I am also posting this for awareness – to ensure that you know to keep your children safe - ☆☆☆ ROBERT WITCHELL LIVES IN TONYREFAIL ☆☆☆ and because I desperately need everyone to know what has happened and what ROBERT WITCHELL did to me.
The Police stated that there were no other victims that they know of, but I do not trust them.
I do not believe that a child abuser commits these heinous crimes in isolation. Is there a history, has WITCHELL done what he did to me to someone else??
This is so very hard because I feel horrifically guilty for almost hoping there is another victim, for even thinking it. I would never want anyone to go through what WITCHELL put me through, never in a million lifetimes, but, if another victim comes forward it would validate what I said and make it more likely that WITCHELL will face the punishment he deserves, to rot in hell/prison, I don’t care which.
♡♡♡♡ I finally want to say to survivors everywhere, you are so strong for merely waking up everyday and facing the World when it is the very last thing you want to do........... please keep trying to find peace in your lives. You are all so strong & brave. I wish every one of you all the very, very best. Please hold on; - there is always hope, please never give up ♡♡♡♡
The following quote that has become my mantra; - helping me to stay a little positive –
‘You become unstoppable when you realise how to turn your pain into power’.
For everyone’s information – I have checked this post with my solicitor, he has had sight of it and confirmed that I am not breaking any laws and I can go ahead and post
Do I need to book for Monday and how much is it per person please to bowl?
Thank you in advance
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Please can anyone tell me if you need to book for 1 game of bowling? I've tried ringing and also messaged but not had a reply and was hoping to come this Thursday