Coached By CiCi

And be with it.

And tend to it.

Without taking it personally.

Or letting it rock your foundations.

There’s a frequency of Feminine energy that’s still (static) like a mountain.

She like Everest.

Avalanches & snow storms rage on her north side,

And yet she remains completely still.

Unmoved to the naked eye.

It’s not that storms don’t arise,

Or even that she’s numb or cold.

It’s that she can be with it all, and not crumble.

It’s a state of being that’s taken eons to cultivate.

And it’s something we can tap into.

It brings us the grounded strength to sit inside a relationship that feels full of paradox.

It lets us descend back to centre when thoughts whip up like a tornado in our heads.

It’s an offering of vast, safe, unchanging space to the weary, in-pain, Masculine.. seeking his version of surrender & rest.

It’s a woman who can bear witness to someone’s emotions, show compassion, and still anchor into ‘I love you AND that’s not my responsibility’.

It’s a coach who can show up to a client session and say, ‘I feel like I don’t know what I’m doing today.. but I’m HERE and I’m not going to abandon you’.

It’s a lover who really hears her man when he shares a triggered moment, and radiates the energy of ‘you’re still a warrior in my eyes, even now, even in this hurt’.

It’s Mountain Mama.

It’s the much harder, but more rewarding work of, focusing on nurturing the capacity to be with the messiness of human life as it unfolds,

Instead of the constant, exhausting, uphill battle with a perfectionist utopian state that doesn’t exist.

When you can hold ALL of this,

And still take up space..

Still show up to difficult conversations..

Still put your work out there..

Still be a lover & a partner & a space holder..

Without morphing into distorted mother..

Yes, there will be catastrophic events,

And you’ll be in the middle of it all,

A nurturer,

A safe space,

And a midwife for boundless growth in others.

🏔

If this speaks to the depths of your feminine soul, my new advanced practice group launches on 1st September.. jump on the waiting list now to receive all the deets & pre-launch discount.

Link in my bio.

The Masculine mind looks like lines, boxes, statistics.

So OF COURSE the big mushball that is the (untethered) Feminine, IS deeply confusing to him.

When we show up with wishy-washy, vague energy..

When we try to hide both the desires that make our hairs stand up AND the shadows we're scared will get us kicked out of society..

Guess what we're a beacon for?

An unsure, tentative, one-foot-in // one-foot-out Masculine.

The Feminine needs to be willing to receive maaaany F**k No's.. to find her F**k Yes Let's F**king Go I Want You & Only You.

AKA Cave Man Love 😉

To the point where the F**k No becomes a low-key kink because of the energy & space it clears.

That's not to say we bypass our pain & grief..

If anything, those emotions get swirled into the ways we seduce ourselves

Because closure hurts soooooo much more than the raw emotion that actually cleanses the aura & makes us proud of how we're showing up in the world.

How do we go from confusing mushball to crystal clear, enticing, invitation?

We become willing to stretch our awareness to both extremes.

I remember fleshing out my desires to a man pre-Alex:

"I want to be claimed by a man, heart body and soul.. I wanna be met on every level, emotionally spiritually physically & mentally.."

He went along with it for a bit, and then ghosted.

By that point, I didn't care!! 😈

The turn-on that came from owning (AND SPEAKING) a guttural, dormant desire was so invigorating & enlivening

AND

I finally decided to f*ck with my shadow.

The part of me that would literally roll over & throw herself on a burning pyre for love.

I'd denied her in favour of my I Can Take Care Of Myself Act (which is code for, I'm afraid of my own co-dependence).

Or the cold, steely, part of me that wants to know my man would pick up a gun & kill for me.

Or the rabid, insatiable part of me that would rip his heart out & drink the blood.

THERE ARE MORE.

The Feminine doesn't mean lack of clarity - it means intimate knowledge of our innards.

Being willing to become a roaring beacon that speaks directly to his core.

Showing up with crystal clear intention

And saying

I am what you've been hunting.

Come & claim me.

UNAPOLOGETIC LISBON OUTFIT DROP 🌈

I don’t know if it’s my defined G centre, but I have always, always, expressed my sense of self through my clothes.

I know exactly what’s ‘me’ and what’s not ‘me’.

My clothes are like my mood ring - they swing between beautiful beige’s and neutrals… to audacious brights & a lot of pink.

I’ve always had this mini-philosophy that if you’re gonna wear colour, the raddest thing is to just rock it from head to toe.

The only thing that never changes is my obligatory gold hoops.

I’ve never been one for dress codes, preferring to always show up exactly how I feel like showing up.

Sometimes I’m underdressed, and often I’m overdressed, but I’m always ME.

This is how the Feminine LOVES to be.. to move through you.

She who is Infinite.
She who is Inimitable.
She who is Limitless.

A supernova of self-expression, that all stems from the same core.

A million different versions with YOUR unique & enigmatic frequency running through them all.

When your shape-shifting comes rooted in conscious authenticity..

No one can replicate you.

No one can take that power from you.

&

No one can keep up with your evolution.

🌈

❤️‍🔥🌹🫦

Sweet Loves,

Only 2 days until my immersive workshop:

❤️‍🔥 The Feminine in Love ❤️‍🔥

Where we’ll be gathering for archetypal wisdom (Lover) and embodiment practice to crack us open wiiiiiiiide.

I want to deeply support you to rest AS love - whether single or partnered - without fu***ng yourself up in the process // losing yourself.

DM me for the link!!!!!!

5pm
21/7/22
Replay available
£31

I find it so hard to explain The Heroines Circle… because it just has to be EXPERIENCED.

It’s a sense of safety… of magic… of coming home.

It’s staring in awe as another powerful women reveals the deepest truths in her heart.

It’s nervously unmuting to speak, and letting your nervous system know it’s safe to to be seen.. to exist as you are.

It’s getting to try something new.. something just for you.

It’s knowing you can say anything at ALL… and you won’t be judged.

It’s seeing 100 different versions of yourself mirrored back to you in the women who have CHOSEN to sit with you.. and knowing, if she can.. I can too.

It’s everything you never knew you needed.

It’s rediscovering the absolutely sacred joy of being a woman.

It’s safe.
It’s magic.
It’s homecoming.

Today is the last day you’ll get access to a LIVE GATHERING if you take advantage of my July offer - our next one is in August.

Use code BIRTHDAYBABY at the link in my bio (Join The Heroines Circle) - the zoom link is in the portal & we gather at 6pm.

Can’t wait to see you there - I’ll be waiting to welcome you with open arms my love 😘

(You’ll still receive access to the library of practices & archived circles if you join between now & end of July!)

I am a woman of wild cycles.

A revolutionary who boldly leads her people by example.

A sensualist who loves to luxuriate in the slow in-between moments.

A heroine on her own healing journey.

I unapologetically live life in the realms of paradox -

Gentle, yet fierce.
Self-leading, yet surrendered.
Soft, yet deeply sexual.

I am deliciously inconsistent and only say yes to what is in absolute alignment.

Polarity is, and will always be, my spiritual practice - because it’s by embracing our wholeness that true liberation is found.

In Astrology, my South Node is Cancer (Mother) and my North Node is Capricorn (Father), so journeying between these two poles is written into my soul's DNA.

Coming into relationship with both the Masculine and the Feminine - both within & without - has cracked me open to so, soo, much more.. more love, more depth, more creativity.

To put it simply:

The dual divine nourishes the f*ck out of me, daily, and all my work pours forth from this wellspring of deeply knowing, and truly loving, ALL of who I am.

❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥

Love,

On 21st July I am giving a workshop called The Feminine in Love.

It’s through the mastery of what I’ve shared above, that I’ve come into a season where I am fully supported & worshipped by the Masculine.. AND.. in the most prosperous chapter of my business / in deep devotion to my purpose.

Expect archetypal wisdom, polarity, embodiment practices & so much depth.

It’s just £31 to celebrate my 31st birthday this month.

Divine Feminine Goddess -

I would looove to see you there, come & play.

DM me for the link.

CiCi xo

I was waiting for the birthday wisdom… then I realised that my contentedness in the waiting WAS the wisdom.

LEADING & GUIDING are not the same thing, IMO.

If it helps, you could see leading as externally motivated, and guiding as internally motivated.

The Masculine hooooolds the container..

With strength, safety, presence.

The Feminine sets the energetic tone..

With body, tenderness, eros.

I see this showing up when there’s emotional work to be done, emotion-laced conversations to be had…

Women waiting to be led into them by their King.

Waiting…

Waiting…

My love,

Did you forget it’s your responsibility to guide?

He’s created the void.

You fill the space.

Don’t be afraid to take him there.

Don’t hold back from guiding your man down to the underworld.

You guide with your breath, by taking it down into your womb.

You guide with your questions - are you ready to receive all of me?

You guide with your hands, are they gently making contact with either your heart or his?

You guide with your eyes, are you actually inviting him on the journey with you?

You guide because your core energy is ever-changing.

The Masculine’s core energy is not.

In fact - the less changeable he is, the better.

That’s why he boldly leads,

And you gently guide.

Divine Feminine,

Don’t be afraid to go first.

Take him by the hand,

Take him there.

That’s on you.

…that’s why he’s with you.

To go home,

To Goddess.

❤️‍🔥

Mmmmm

If you devour all things Divine Masculine / Divine Feminine, and desire to walk the pathway of polarity as your spiritual practice, and see dating / relationships as your biggest teacher…

You HAVE to be at my workshop:

❤️‍🔥 The Feminine in Love ❤️‍🔥

on 21st July.

Expect play, practices, sensuality, awakening and essential wisdom to take out into the world / to your man, for just £31.

DM me for the link to join - replay will be sent out.

a prayer spoken over the first drop of this months bleed 🩸🕊✨

The Maiden in you absolutely deserves to face inward, into circle, and receive what she needs.

But the Mother in you is being called to face outward, to shift from I to WE, and take the feminine into your community.

Keep your temple spaces sacred, absolutely, but when the world begins to burn…

Don’t hide in them.

The whole world needs the Feminine, and you are her prophetess, her proclaimer, her living voice.

Last night, in my membership () new moon gathering.. we all felt at a loss as to what we can do against all the hate happening in the world, particularly Ukraine & the US..

I gave the heroines a simple invitation:

Go & tell one woman you know about circle.

It can be this one, or someone else’s, or the concept in general.

Tell one woman you know how your life has been impacted by being in circle.

Tell someone about the Divine Feminine & the Divine Masculine, and that there are pathways for them to be reclaimed.

Maybe even tell a masculine figure in your life.

Tell someone it feels kinda edgy to share to, even.

That’s what we do.

We spread the word - we fly the flag for this quiet, but fierce, revolution.

We tend to ourselves, first.

And then we take the power & the love of the Feminine, where others fear to tread.

🧜🏼‍♀️❤️‍🔥🙏🏽

I’m sure you’ve seen the beautifully designed images of the connection between cervix, heart and throat?

The holy trinity of pleasure, power, and profound feminine wisdom.

As we grow in the womb, the membranes that later form our throat and our cervix, begin as one.

As we move through the world, they remain deeply connected by our vagus nerve - the part of our nervous system that dictates how relaxed and regulated we are.

It’s inside these connections that my deepest wound, and my most potent power emerge.

Everyone that enters my spaces, reflects back to me how much they resonate with my voice.

I can illuminate patterns to people without triggering huge defences in them.

I can explain complex concepts with a lightness, and an ease.

I can record podcast episodes, or channel through visualisations with no notes.

I can ask for exactly what I need, how much, how little.

Until, I’m in the bedroom.

Until, I’m being touched by a man, sexually.

Then, the thing that keeps me safe, creates magic, gets me paid, lights up my spaces…

It disappears.

It got taken away.

I learnt that it’s deeply unsafe to specify any needs, wants or set any boundaries.

I learnt that to be loved, meant to comply.

When I was on retreat with my sisters, my voice remained present throughout all mutual touch / massage practices.

When I returned to Alex, even asking him to stop tickling my back (fully clothed) sent me into a trauma responsive state.

I saw my ex’s face flashing into my mind.

Felt raw grief.

Knew I needed to sob into a pillow, so I asked him to leave.

And for the first time,

I could viscerally feel that what was purging through me, wasn’t all mine.

None of this has been all mine.

We are born into it.

Into a world where your voice is not welcome and your cervix definitely isn’t safe.

Futile rage begun to soften into gentle pride.

Because.. reclaiming your pleasure..

is the biggest act of rebellion in this deeply wounded, patriarchal world.

My lineage is thanking me.

My ancestors smile over me.

I’m doing my best, facing my wounds..

I’m sourcing embodied wisdom from there.

I’m enough.

Forever, and ever, and ever.. ENOUGH.

~ part 3/3 ~