10/25/2026
🦄💜 SOMETIMES THE THINGS WE'RE MOST GRATEFUL FOR ARE THE THINGS WE ALMOST LOST.
💬 What's something you're grateful for today that you might have once taken for granted? Big or small, I especially love hearing about the little things!
Welcome back to the Shawnicorn Archives! 😂🦄
This video is from April 22, 2025, back when I was doing weekly themes and creating several videos a week, along with daily content. Sometimes it felt like I was shouting into the fu***ng void! 🤣 Maybe I'll bring those themes back!
That week's theme was Gratitude for the Present Moment, and in this video, I talked about being grateful for my resilience and, more specifically, my ability to walk on my own two feet.
For those who don't know, I've had SIX major surgeries on my left foot alone. I walked with a cane for YEARS and was told I would likely need it for the rest of my life.
I was also told my health would continue declining and that eventually, I might lose my left foot to amputation.
Y'all, I was hearing this s**t in my 30s and 40s. Not when I was 80 or 90.
THAT'S FU***NG TERRIFYING.
Years of diabetes that went unchecked had caused neuropathy and circulation problems. I've dealt with ulcers, blood blisters, and calluses that can become dangerous because I can't always feel when something is wrong.
Even today, I see my podiatrist every 4–6 weeks to help keep my feet healthy and safe. In September 2024, I came frighteningly close to losing my foot again.
But something changed after my marriage ended in 2023.
My health began improving. Eventually, I no longer needed my cane every day!
I've had setbacks, of course. In 2024, shortly after buying my motorcycle, I injured my knee and needed my brace and cane again for months. I aggravated it again at Geek Out that June. And this past summer, another knee injury kept me from walking much or riding for about a week.
But those have been temporary setbacks, not my everyday reality anymore.
I still have my canes and knee brace because sometimes I need them. And I'm grateful they're there when I do.
I'm also incredibly grateful that my blood sugar has improved to the point that I'm now considered prediabetic rather than diabetic.
I remember having to prick my fingers to check my blood sugar, feeling exhausted and heavy, and not understanding why I felt so awful.
Today, at 50 years old, approaching 51, I'M STILL WALKING ON MY OWN TWO FEET! 💜
Something I was once told I would eventually lose.
And I don't take that for granted.
Now, watching this video a year and a half later, there's another part that hit me right in the heart.
I talked about being grateful for my wild-ass floof, Eminem. 🐈💖
I had no idea that just a year or so later, I'd be saying goodbye to my little chaos gremlin.
Hearing myself talk about her while she was still here is bittersweet as f**k.
Today, I'm grateful that I got to know her love. That I got to love her. That we got to share our lives, even though our time together wasn't nearly long enough. 💔
And I'm grateful for the love and connection I've found with my Magickal Misfits family, too. The people who show up, encourage me, share their stories, and remind me that I'm not shouting into the void anymore.
These past few months have been incredibly difficult. Depression and grief have taken a lot out of me, and I'm still finding my way through.
But revisiting these old videos is reminding me of something important.
GRATITUDE DOESN'T MEAN LIFE IS EASY. IT MEANS WE CAN STILL RECOGNIZE WHAT MATTERS, EVEN WHEN LIFE IS FU***NG HARD.
I can grieve what I've lost and still appreciate what I have. I can struggle with my mental health and still be thankful for how far I've come.
And I can be grateful for my resilience without pretending I haven't been through some really hard s**t.
Sometimes gratitude is something as simple as getting out of bed, walking across the room without assistance, hearing a familiar voice, or remembering the love of someone who's no longer here.
Those little things aren't always so little. 💜
So I'm bringing back the question I asked in April 2025:
💬 WHAT ARE YOU GRATEFUL FOR TODAY? Big, small, ordinary, extraordinary... I want to hear it!
And maybe I'll bring back those weekly themes, too. Because apparently, past Shawnicorn still has a whole lot to teach present Shawnicorn! 😂🦄🌈
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