Amalia Maria Lee

I used to believe that in order for life to be meaningful, it needed to be full of accomplishment. That meant I was fulfilling my potential.

If I saw people that weren’t working towards something, I thought they must be depressed or lost. This was my conditioning.

Most of us measure life. We think if we are working on a promotion, a degree, a business… if we can lift more, run faster, weigh more or less than we did yesterday- then we are “doing something with our lives.” The focus could be having a child, getting married, planting trees, or saving lives… but I now believe the question is not what we are doing or not doing… it’s why.

We often use our passions, our families, our careers, as distractions rather than a path to ourselves. And we can tend to look at the old guy living in his van, or the friend who never finished college or doesn’t have a (prestigious) job… as a failure of some kind… but they can often be much farther along in the process of knowing themselves, of feeling peace, than many of us in the “grind” or the “glory” of accomplishment.

What would we do if we didn’t need money? What would we do if we weren’t taught that looking a certain way or having certain things made us more relevant or lovable? I believe in answering that question, we can find our truest way… to abundance, to purpose, to love, to health and even beauty.. but most importantly we can find our way to ourselves, our higher self-
to peace ✌🏽 ☮️ 🙏🏽🌸

At the risk of sounding obvious or cliché… Being a parent has been the strongest medicine, the biggest teaching experience, and by far the most eye opening mirror of my life. Anything that I thought I had figured out about myself has come back under examination as a parent. Every file I thought I closed, I’ve had to open back up and re-evaluate. I was generally calm, in command of my behavior and energy… and then I had a baby, a toddler, a 3 yrsold genius with unlimited energy ⚡️… and I notice how easy it is for me to be triggered or reactive.

But I have to say… and would like to share… how healing and expanding to my consciousness and self-knowledge this has been. We can look at our kids and think “they are driving me crazy!” But if we look past that moment and feeling, there is so much information there. Such an opportunity to heal and grow.

I know we are all on different paths… how true does this feel to you?

If you feel it too, what are some gems you don’t mind sharing?

I have one or two that have really helped me in my adult relationships, with self-love, and of course… GRACE and PATIENCE. 🙏🏽
Always a work in progress

Was it always a thing that so many people feel that everyone should have the same opinion as their own?
It seems to me that this is the main fuel behind our pathological polarization and separation at the moment.
People have always had different views… but i feel like there was more respect. Like- in the end, we were on the same team. And perhaps even had something to learn or gain from people who thought differently.

All of my friends are so different from me and one another… I LOVE IT! What we have in common is AUTHENTICITY. We are living our truths while simultaneously pursuing that truth. I am magnetized to people like that. ✨✨✨

We eat differently, raise our children differently, see education, politics, medicine and health DIFFERENTLY. We love each other, don’t try to change each other and don’t shy away from sharing what is important to us either.

I have decided to begin sharing like that in this space… fearlessly honest. In the past I have shared my life, but I realize now that I didn’t share all of me because it didn’t feel safe. That filter made social media feel like work. Then motherhood. That made social media feel completely unimportant.

All of a sudden I have been filled with this desire to build community. To reach beyond my existence as a wife and mother and connect with women. I have nothing to sell. No long term plan. But somehow I know this is part of my purpose. So now, in an instant, Instagram turns from toxic drain to sacred space to me. 🤷🏻‍♀️

So we’ll see how this goes… 🙏🏽

I’d like to round out my 3 black and white “love pics” with this one… my future album cover 😏

Here I imagine us as revolutionaries in the 60’s. Sleeping on the earth at night and raging against the machine by day. Perhaps this was us in a past life.

Now our greatest act of subversion is loving each other without trying to change each other. Perusing joy and time with family and Mother Earth as our greatest imperatives in life.

It may not sound like much but I’m realizing how revolutionary it is.

Album is called “Past Lives”…. I’ll let u know when I record it 🤣✌🏽🕊️☮️

About 10 years ago I had a big realization…
I was going to live my life based on fun, not fear. Reconnect with my childlike nature.
I was going to measure my success based on experiences and joy… not necessarily “things.”
I was going to be ok with doing things differently and people disagreeing with my choices.

I was going to trust my intuition.
Trust that I am held.

That decision was hard. Required a lot of tearing down and rebuilding. Required a lot of courage in the face of the people closest to me thinking I was screwing my life up.

But here I am. Held indeed ❤️

Best decision I ever made.

My life partner. The father of my sun. But above all- my one true love. 🖤

Me n’ my baby boy 💙

Wild Child 🌱💚

Son shine ☀️

Ora Bear ✨✨✨✨
Performer
Builder
Athlete
Shaman
Earth Child
Snuggler
Animal
Wizard
Student
Teacher
Friend
New
Eternal
Hilarious
Animated
Sincere
Wise
Loving
Beautiful
Our sun ☀️

The best

I live for these moments. Blessed that they come so often.
You are my sunshines ☀️☀️