Bitchcraft Tarot

Today sucked, but I learned a valuable lesson about myself. I've been asking a lot of questions about myself lately, "what do I have to offer anyone?", "why try when others, people much better than me, have failed?", "what makes me any different than anyone else who's tried and failed? I'm nothing special." and honestly, I could never find an answer.

I never pictured myself as anything special, pretty but not stunning, competent but not exemplary, a decent worker but not a "rising star" so to speak. But man, today? Today kicked my butt. I've been feeling down lately, things have been slipping around the house, I haven't been on top of myself or my responsibilities, I've been feeling like crap about my at home situations (currently unemployed and mentally ill). I digress, not the focus, but I've been determined to get things back under control.

I decided to start with the house today, and I stepped, fully focused, into cleaning tornado mode. I'm going room to room, throwing trash, gathering clothes, just picking up in general, and honestly, I'm feeling amazing about myself. Finally, after 29 years, I was getting some control of these highs and lows I feel. I decide Im going to do some laundry. Easy enough right? Well, if you aren't me maybe lol.

I lost the laundry card. It felt like the universe was laughing at me. How was I going to dry the clothes? I start frantically searching my house, going through absolutely everything with no thought to putting anything away. I didn’t notice it at the time but before i'd even really accepted that I didn’t have the card I was already working on a solution. And my first instinct was to take care of making sure the clothes got moved, and laid out in the back yard, and then worry about replacing the lost card.

I'm not exactly proud to admit it, but I cried. And I yelled. And I talked down to myself, badly. I said things I'd never let anyone say to me. I didn’t know how to sooth myself so as I usually do, I pulled out my cards. I thought about the questions I could ask, but I decided to ask the one that could help reframe my thinking… "What am I supposed to be learning from this?". I pulled Strength, which I really thought was ironic. I mean, I had just lost something pretty important and all good feelings and progress, then cried bout it lol, what strength? But instead of immediately shutting myself down I decided to try to really open myself up to what the universe was trying to tell me.

Without even thinking about it I had jumped into problem solver mode. I was able to feel my feelings without letting them make me useless. I've been the fixer my whole life, and it came to me so naturally I didn’t even question it. And I know I've used that skill to keep me from a lot of hardships, and to salvage a lot from way too little, to fix mistakes before they become patterns or disasters, to help my friends and family at their worst.

My ability to keep calm and take charge in a crisis has always been a part of me. Maybe due to my upbringing but I choose to believe it's my sparkle, the thing I have that makes me shine. And I'm ashamed to say I've taken that part of me for granted. But studying this card has really highlighted for me the fact that strength comes in all shapes and sizes, and for the first time I was really able to identify it in myself. It felt amazing. To see myself in that light, even just for a few minutes, was beautiful in ways I don’t yet have the words for.

TL;DR: sometimes our strengths are so ingrained in us they're impossible to see clearly. but if you let your mind settle and open your heart to the universe, the answers could have been right in front of you the whole time. try it out and see if you can find your moment of clarity, you might just surprise yourself a little today!

Me trying to convince people to let me read for them because otherwise I'm bored and driving my man crazy 🤣🤣

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So I finally dropped my deck pics in my group 😛😉 if you're as excited as I am leave me a comment and we can get you added 💜

I'm trying to get lost in the sauce today 🥰 let me help you help yourself! You deserve it! 💜

So like all good things my kitty deck must come to an end 💜 I've been called to move on. Although I was really loving them and I got great compliments, I'll be moving on to a new deck and with that a new look for my page, be on the lookout for new pictures and tell me what you think!! I think y'all will love them as much as I do 🥰

I'm so proud of my baby 😍😍 I needed her Persephone and she's doing so well 😍😍

Merry Christmas and Bitchen Yule from me and mine to you and yours 💜💜💜

Another review for my readings 🥰 I'm so glad I'm finally able to help people in a more substantial way!!

The Rider Tarot
by: Arthur Edward Waite

The first sign of me finally getting my stuff together ❤️ I'll be adding more pictures of the decks I offer reading with as I'm able to get them, but here is the first of many (too many maybe 😂).