03/04/2026
Do you remember the first time you ever sat on or interacted with a horse?
I can. I was nine. That combination of fear, thrill and awe is still palpable inside that memory. It was that first experience of connecting to something so true, so real, so primal that I had never felt before.
Horse are perhaps the most tangible, living, breathing connection in our domesticated world that we have back to our own truest nature. These 1,000 pound prey animals are whispering to us to remember. I think it's why we crave being with them, whether we realize it or not.
The reality is that no matter how hard we try in this modern life, we can not (much, perhaps, to our chagrin) completely obliterate this connection to our wild, a deeper knowing and connection developed over eons. The harder we try to do this, the sicker we become – of body, of mind – just look around at what is happening today at pretty much every level of society. We suffer deeply from this disconnection from nature and thus from self.
My gelding likes to really look me in the eye, up close. I feel like he is letting me, for just a brief moment, see our commonality. He also likes to share breath – you know, when a horse raises their head and gets close to breathe you in. It strikes me as one of the most intimate things a horse can volunteer to do with us. I feel like it is a reminder of a basic, primal connection. This sharing of not just oxygen but the rhythm of breathing together, the syncopation that is everywhere in around us, in nature. It is not just a cute, awe-shucks moment, if feels like an invitation to align at a beautiful, basic level. For a fleeting moment, I feel a shift (if I am present), any semblance of hierarchy or control or intellectualizing or anthropomorphizing dissolves. Then p**f, the moment has passed, and I am back at the surface of things, where most of us spend 99.9% of our day.
As much as we might try to extinguish that wild light in them, and so in us, it still burns at least on low, no matter how hell bent we are to douse the flame. They reflect our wildness, and in so doing put us in direct conflict with a culture that values control, compliance, appearance, performance, success.
These days when I watch most “upper level” riders what I see are humans that are so disconnected from themselves, so desperately in need of conquering any scintilla of the wild within that they are doing everything they can think of to impose that same clamped down control over their horses, sometimes with pretty harsh results.
I got the same feeling listening to a recent podcast in which the concept of respect in relation to horses was discussed. This is such a loaded word. Sometimes it is about semantics, “respect” gets conflated with “boundaries”. But just as often, I think the word carries the weight of the person’s need to be seen as dominant, to be revered as the superior being who must be complied with, no questions asked or answered. And when the horse does not adhere (because their brains are not capable of the nuance of respect by this definition), the person takes it personally, becomes angry or frustrated or shamed – how dare my horse not respect me!
It also brings to mind a clinic I went to audit a few years ago. Women, all of a certain age, as they say, were being taught by a man how to be the center of their horse’s attention – or else. Fairly aggressively getting after their horses to “focus on me!”
We bring the weight of our own internal disconnection from our true essence, our own wounding, into our interactions with our horses. And it gets in the way. If we are constantly running from ourselves, no one, not even the horses, can catch us.
How to begin to excavate the lost path back to the nothing-less-than splendor that is our true selves? It will be different for each of us. Perhaps it starts with presence, with breath, with a willingness to slow down. It is the invitation the horses are issuing to us, every day, in every interaction.
I believe it is their greatest gift to us, if we can accept it.