Anjelica Tova

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You know what's truly liberating? Living life in accordance with what's specifically important to YOU.

What happiness is to YOU.

What contentment is to YOU.

Ever since spending 9 weeks in Viti (Fiji) earlier this year, life has become incredibly simple.

My overly ambitious ass had massive dreams and whole hearted intentions to finish writing my 1st book as well as my 1st children's book AT LEAST (😂😂😂 I'm proudly delulu AF)

Nek min Manu got chickenpox & I got every MFn disease under the sun - which was so random cos I hardly get sick + especially in Fiji + I'm well traveled so I have a strong stomach.

I had intense migraines (when I pretty much never even get headaches), styes, cold sores, boil like pimples on my face, woke up limping, diarrhea, I missed my period twice.. the list is endless.

I trusted my intuition and we healed both of us naturally & holistically. With sunshine, salt water, grandmother healers, wai vaka viti (Fijian herbal medicine, kavitis correct me if this is wrong), lots of sleep and great nutrition.

And with all of this chaos in paradise, I was forced to slow down ~~~ Fiji Time 🌴

Everything was put into perspective for me.

Focus on health & wellbeing. Stop working (I'm privileged enough to be in a position where I have this choice). Stop trying to do a million things. Focus on my son and his first 3 years of crucial development (at least)

So I have been. I'm living my mamahood dream that I've dreamed about since I was 13 years old 🥹

I love being a mama, homemaker, cooking, gardening & hanging with friends.

My creativity is weaved in random songs I make up for my boy, cooking meals from whatever food I have left over, beautifying my living space, different outfits reflecting different vibes or intentions for the day etc etc etc.

It's literally that simple for me at the moment.

It feels like peace.

It feels like home.

My other dreams are on hold & I release all pressure of any time frame.

I understand and trust that nature's timing is perfect.

All I can really embrace is NOW & all the blessings HERE that I've prayed for in the past.

Humbled & Grateful 🙏🏾

I wish you all the richness of simplicity beautyfull humans 💜

Omg thank you so much

The moon & I
We have this lie

We tell each other...

That we both need sleep
Yet I need to weep

So whatever shall I try...

Dancing
Messaging
Laughing through memes

My heart
My soul
She stirs

Restless
Relentless
In timeless pursuit

Of a love unexemplified

When Einstein gave lectures at U.S. universities, the recurring question that students asked him most was:
- Do you believe in God?
- And he always answered:
"I believe in the God of Spinoza"

Baruch de Spinoza was a Dutch philosopher considered one of the great rationalists of 17th century philosophy, along with Descartes.

(Spinoza):

God would say:

Stop praying.

What I want you to do is go out into the world and enjoy your life. I want you to sing, have fun and enjoy everything I've made for you.
Stop going into those dark, cold temples that you built yourself and saying they are my house. My house is in the mountains, in the woods, rivers, lakes, beaches. That's where I live and there I express my love for you.

Stop blaming me for your miserable life; I never told you there was anything wrong with you or that you were a sinner, or that your sexuality was a bad thing. S*x is a gift I have given you and with which you can express your love, your ecstasy, your joy. So don't blame me for everything they made you believe.

Stop reading alleged sacred scriptures that have nothing to do with me. If you can't read me in a sunrise, in a landscape, in the look of your friends, in your son's eyes... you will find me in no book!

Stop asking me "will you tell me how to do my job?" Stop being so scared of me. I do not judge you or criticize you, nor get angry, or bothered. I am pure love.

Stop asking for forgiveness, there's nothing to forgive. If I made you... I filled you with passions, limitations, pleasures, feelings, needs, inconsistencies... free will. How can I blame you if you respond to something I put in you? How can I punish you for being the way you are, if I'm the one who made you? Do you think I could create a place to burn all my children who behave badly for the rest of eternity? What kind of god would do that?

Respect your peers and don't do what you don't want for yourself. All I ask is that you pay attention in your life, that alertness is your guide.

My beloved, this life is not a test, not a step on the way, not a rehearsal, nor a prelude to paradise. This life is the only thing here and now and it is all you need.

I have set you absolutely free, no prizes or punishments, no sins or virtues, no one carries a marker, no one keeps a record.

You are absolutely free to create in your life. Heaven or hell.

I can't tell you if there's anything after this life but I can give you a tip. Live as if there is not. As if this is your only chance to enjoy, to love, to exist.

So, if there's nothing after, then you will have enjoyed the opportunity I gave you. And if there is, rest assured that I won't ask if you behaved right or wrong, I'll ask. Did you like it? Did you have fun? What did you enjoy the most? What did you learn?...

Stop believing in me; believing is assuming, guessing, imagining. I don't want you to believe in me, I want you to believe in you. I want you to feel me in you when you kiss your beloved, when you tuck in your little girl, when you caress your dog, when you bathe in the sea.

Stop praising me, what kind of egomaniac God do you think I am?
I'm bored being praised. I'm tired of being thanked. Feeling grateful? Prove it by taking care of yourself, your health, your relationships, the world. Express your joy! That's the way to praise me.

Stop complicating things and repeating as a parakeet what you've been taught about me.

What do you need more miracles for? So many explanations?

The only thing for sure is that you are here, that you are alive, that this world is full of wonders.

- Spinoza

This year has been fullpower ay fam? 80% of the time I can't sleep cos I'm so excited about all my dreams coming true. So much inspiration and actualization flowing through me! FOR REAL. Anyone else??!!

2 days till our 1st call for Tabooyah - The Sisterhood!! 😍😍😍 CHAAAAYHOOOO!!! $99/month. If you're in an iffy financial situation but still keen to jump in - DM me & I'll see what we can do. I hope you gift yourself this opportunity to RECEIVE support from me/other REAL inspiring wahine.

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You hold your tongue to 'keep the Peace' over & over only to create an internal war within yourself. Be true to you. Say the thing. Liberate your voice 🔥

Your power is in your decision.

I decided when I was 8 I was gonna go to India after being mesmerized by a picture of the Taj Mahal in primary & have spent a year of my life there.

I decided when I was 13 i'm sick of using eczema prescription drugs & using asthma inhalers every single day, educated/researched holistic healing modalities and have 90% healed myself naturally.

I decided I'd finish my civil engineering degree even though my heart wasn't in it to make my parents proud & I did.

I decided I was gonna travel the world when I was 19, and have spent 5 years travelling, living & working abroad (20+ countries)

I decided the corporate life/9-5 rat race is not for me also when I was 19 & that I was gonna be an entrepreneur and work for myself doing what I love and now I am.

In 2016 I decided to quit drinking after being #1 party gal relying on alcohol to feel comfortable in my skin and have been sober 8 years.

I decided I was gonna run a marathon, even tho I'm a life long asthmatic. I decided to run 4-5x a week rain or shine + strength training 4/5 x a week and I did (but no marathon - instead got pregnant hahaha)

In 2021 I decided I was ready to be a mother because of how powerfully I have embodied the woman I want to be and now I am one! (definitely had so many other dreams I wanted to accomplish beforehand though but )

I decided my heart is not just for me and I will share my love of life/connection with self/self empowerment with humanity & I do it nearly everyday.

Some of these decisions have been BOOM clear full conviction, where others were more subconscious.

Every day I am more & more decided on the vision I am creating for myself. Refining with such clarity & excitement.

Letting go of old beliefs, thought patterns, suppressed emotions, all the stuff that isn't in alignment for my purpose here on this earth.

Trusting & surrendering while still taking messy, inspired action & embodying a powerful, confident, heart-centred leader everyday.

It's all in the decision baby.

I decided I am worthy of all my desires.
I decided what I desires also desires me.
I decided life is INCREDIBLE and God/the universe loves supporting me and making my desires come true!

Tabooyah - The Sisterhood starts next Wednesday! You have till the end of the week to join for $55 before it goes up to $99 next week.

If you're feeling the call. Decide it's for you, decide it will change your life, decide you are worthy of this desire & allow yourself to be supported by me + other powerful, brave women doing the work. DM me for more info # # #

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