A Rich Inner Life

Story of my life. I always thought that asking for help was a sign of weakness. In fact, I was told to never ask for help and to just get things done myself. However, now I’ve come to realise that that is totally wrong. We do need people because we just can’t do everything. It takes time. There are setbacks. But, we do need support and asking for help really is not a sign of weakness. It’s a sign of strength.

This Sunday 4 March at 12:30pm, my cousin, John Frankcombe, is featured on ABC Landline.

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Life’s current state: chaos and procrastination 😒

I’ve been wanting to freshen up my living space for months. However, a black hole of depression, increased work demands and other distractions put all that on the back burner. And then there was the sudden news that painting was not enough in the bathrooms; I need completely new ones. All of that didn’t speed up the painting, nor my move from camping out in my exploding lounge/dining room. But all of that is just an excuse. Procrastination can be common for anxious perfectionists. Often, perfectionists get overwhelmed by the task/s and worried that the result won’t be right. So much so that the task doesn’t get started. So honesty...I’m overwhelmed and worried. Worried about perfection. Worried about costs. And kind of overwhelmed by it all. Procrastination doesn’t help. It makes things worse. Procrastination is the anthesis to productivity and forward movement. So, to help keep myself accountable and actually finish this for once and all, I’ve put it out there and not kept it hidden and bubbling up inside.

It’s a journey to self-mastery, a process. It’s not immediate. And even then, mastery seems like the wrong word. Enlightenment perhaps? The perfectionist in me forgets that sometimes or criticizes myself too much for any movement backwards. I shut myself off to others, thinking no one gets that, gets me, and it’ll protect me from their judgements or expectations. But really, my harshest critic is myself, and closing oneself off to others doesn’t help.

Started my new year out and about on a rainforest waterfall walk, something I haven’t done in a long while. I’ve been holed up at home - read isolating myself - for most of the second half of 2017. It was a rough year. Worked out some good strategies for anxiety early in the year only to feel knocked back to the start of my wellness journey with quite the depressive bout since September. Here’s hoping for a different year this year, and more confidence to accept and move forward.

Everyday is the time to move forward, but even more so on the first day of a new year. Happy New Year everyone. May it bring you more happiness, sunshine contentment than 2017.

It’s been a rough few weeks, but a mountain hike with some friends was motivating and recharging today. It’s not rocket science; fresh air, sunshine and a gorgeous Glasshouse Mountains view like this really does wonders. Step outside, take a walk and recharge your soul 😊🌿

This year has flown by. January feels like yesterday when I was making all kinds of 2017 goals. There is still time to action those plans. Tomorrow is a brand new day.

It doesn’t have to be giant. It doesn’t have to be major. Moving forward is moving forward even if it’s with baby steps. And even if it feels like you’re not moving at all, that’s ok, too. Sometimes, we just need to rest before the next step.

Positive thoughts about yourself and positive thoughts about others. It can be difficult to retrain yourself to focus on the positive when you're so used to looking for the negative to protect yourself. But this can happen. There is a relationship between change and personal growth, which can definitely lead to positivity and happiness...if we let it. Have a positive day 😊🌺


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It's good to be back in the gym, training again with familiar faces, and getting the routine back on track. I can barely move my arms, but it feels good to do push ups and pull ups. Plus, it's just in time for Colour Week, which is a team challenge week. It's a great way to get to know people and join in the camaraderie.

Some days are good. Some days are bad. But that's life, and it's all a process. I'm working through the yucky side of the process now. I've been feeling unsettled ever since I returned from holidays. I haven't quite fit back into a comfortable routine, and this has had an obvious effect on my health with yet again another bout of illness. It's time for self-care, but more than that (and once I'm better), it's time to work out and stick to a healthy routine that works for mind, body and soul.


📷Art by the amazing Tori Press