Living a healthy life starts with making a decision to commit to your own well-being. Being driven to make changes in your life to better your future self. Hope.
At the age of 8 I found out my life was going to change. I watched the light flicker on the walls and smelt the bitter smell in the air. The ambulance - Paramedics - Hazy memories - A mother clutched by depression and engulfed in a terrible addiction - A small cry from an infant I loved more than just a sister. I knew I was going to set myself apart from other people,
I knew that my life was meant
for a purpose - That I was different. I knew because what young child has the courage to tell the person who is supposed to care for them that they need to change. What young child understands that when speakers come to schools and talk about there lives they are meant to take it to heart. What young child takes that burden for their own without a blink of an eye. I knew because I wasn't the child who played on the playground and didn't worry. I knew because I was the child going to the grocery store with her sister to grab milk and bread at the age of 7. I knew because I was the child who watched men meant to be a positive example walk in and out of my life. I knew because even tho everything that happened would be enough to tear a person into a million different directions I kept positive and genuine. I just didn't know that in that moment God had made a decision to change my life forever. I didn't know I was going to be challenged daily. I didn't realize that from that moment on - everything I was going to do would eventually cause me to reflect upon this moment in time. God had started my life with strength and he was watching me build up the strength to endure the many other struggles I would need to go through. He taught me to be the best version of myself I could with the tools I was given. God knew I would struggle with finding negatives in people and that it would get me into trouble. But not once did he loose faith in my capabilities, so he gave me the challenge to provide and be who I am;
A teacher. A support system. Courage. The power of communication. Passion. Drive. Dedication. Outgoing. Spirited. Uplifting. Understanding. Patient. Kind. Encouraging. I never really felt like I was good enough - I never felt like I could make a difference - The difference I really and truly want to make. It takes being knocked down, battered, and bruised to find the light. To push yourself beyond expectation. It takes being so unsure of yourself that you think you should give up and getting back up again and keeping on going. Never feeling good enough will only continue to push me to be better. I wont lie, I am human and I do feel exceptionally upset sometimes. I feel alone, I feel useless, I feel unwanted, I feel weak, I feel like my words aren't being heard, and sometimes I even want to give up. But the best thing about being me is I know that everyone goes through things in life and it really makes you grow. It changes who you are and sets you on a different level than the people you have around - You will relate to the people you need too. God will allow what you need when you need it. Sometimes its a hard lesson to be learn, but you will always come out with knowledge and a deeper understanding that you can pass forward. My story may be deeper than some people out there, but everyone has a story to tell and everyone has a lesson to teach someone. Listen carefully - If you can't learn from someone than learn it on your own - But in life you will always be under construction. Take the days as they come and push to be better than the day before. Do not allow yourself to get consumed in sadness or doubt, Push yourself to the limits and exceed your own expectations. This life is not easy. This life is going to be so hard that eventually it will kill you... But this life is yours to hold dear to you and to unfold uniquely as an individual. Be proud and courageous. You have a lot to offer this world - Let your light shine. If you don't believe in God than believe that your energy and vibrations will guild you. That how you monitor and see things in life changes by just the beat of your heart. Feel this life. The faster your heart beats the more things will change around you and fit into those vibrations. Hey Everyone! Welcome to my page! I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who has been believing in me and working by my side as I started to make changes in my life. I decided to create this page as a tool for you and myself to challenge each other and discuss things that maybe do not seem very in reach at the moment. I am here to talk with you about what I have done in my life to make changes, and to let you know that everyone goes through things in life - Fitness wise or other - that can affect how we progress and how we feel inside about ourselves. That is OK. We are human and it is going to be a constant struggle in life, but as long as you have the support and knowledge that you need to make a change. Things can and will improve with time! I also want to talk about your successes! I want to know who you are and what you want. I don't care if it is simply you want to work on not getting upset over the little things or, you want to set a goal to finish a project or, something that is completely Fitness related. I believe in wellness, the ability to feel good with ones self on both a physical and mental level. Which includes meeting each and every goal we set out to do. It may take a couple tries and maybe you may find it really isn't reasonable so you may need to adjust that goal. But everyone is capable of setting goals, making those goals a reality and making changes to adapt when things just do not go the way we imagined that they would. I want to give you some ideas as I am going through my journey to push you to be a better self both inside and out! I plan on posting inspiring, real, daily items that I am finding help me get through the day. I also want to post videos of me talking to you about the things I did during the day. Who knows maybe I will post a couple personalized videos from the gym of me sweating buckets, not my most attractive moment - but I want you to see me at both my highest and lowest points so that you can relate to the feeling and we can work on our challenges as a team! Thank you for joining me and watching the changes as the unfold! I can't wait to hear from you and see what you are doing to better your future self! Make sure to drop a message or comment! Cheers! By the way I am sorry for any grammar or spelling errors - I guess we all can't be good at everything ;)
