07/26/2026
If I didnāt push myself to workout when I didnāt want to or if I chose to do the exercises that would feel good instead of always doing gruelling tabata and bootcamps or lifting heavy all the time, I wouldnāt have ālostā those 6 years of only moving my body occasionally because I literally couldnāt force myself to workout 80% of the time. But that break was necessary to get to where I am now. I move pretty much every day. Not because I force myself, but because I genuinely want to.
Thatās why Iām so vocal about making sure we take care of our relationship with exercise. Are we moving just because we want to burn calories and change our bodies?
Do we want to do a light workout but force ourselves to do a hiit workout because thatās whatās āmore effectiveā?
Do we workout when we donāt feel like it even though we know we will feel worse if we do? (Which is very different than going if you donāt feel like it, but know itāll be good for you to go anyways)
Iām sharing all this because I wish I saw posts from trainers like this when I started working out. I hope you find this helpful š©·
07/16/2026
I was scrolling on insta and saw a trainer mention that consistency is not a habit, but an identity and all I could think of was 17 year old me. The me that built fitness and wellness as my identity. That means that when I didnāt eat perfectly or if I skipped a workout, it made me feel extremely guilty. And sometimes, even though I was sick or really needed a day off I would work out anyways. Because it was part of my identity. I was the fitness girl.
Now that fitness is a habit I do but not my identity, I can listen to my body and make decisions to take care of myself instead of doing workouts only because I should. That pushing myself to workout no matter what lead me to 4 years of barely doing any exercise because I completely destroyed my relationship with it. If I had just used exercise as something to take care of myself, I would have ālostā those years of moving my body.
Tuesday, I planned on going for a run but decided Iād rather stay inside and play my game. Wednesday, I truly felt like I wanted to go for a run and I had a great time. If I had forced myself to go Tuesday, I wouldnāt have enjoyed my run. I still associate running with a good time, but if I had forced myself to go, I would associate running with feeling miserable
Iām not saying this to shame anyone who is trying to lose weight (body autonomy, baby!!) but when we only exercise to lose weight, we often force ourselves to workout and that doesnāt build a sustainable and healthy relationship with exercise
Life is hard enough as it is, we donāt need to make it harder by making consistency our identity instead of simply implement healthy habits we do most of the time š©·