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Training in the dark..
I do think I’ve said that before but the Struggle is REAL!!!

I mean I’m over 10kg heavier than use to be even when I started my pole journey about 12 years ago I was 6kg lighter and I feel like I’m way worst then when I started!!

I know I do focus on the positive but come on!! I’m so mad at myself to let myself go.

About 5years ago of anyone would tell me my pole journey won’t be my top priority I would rather have them dead 😵

And life happens and just like that I need to start from scratch.
I might won’t be the same pole dancer as I was before ( probably won’t) but I’d need to feel “hey mama you got this “🤣

Little bit of low flow for today

This is where my new pole journey begins.. I’m with mixed emotions as I feel so heavy and I don’t feel so powerful but I guess if you stop training that’s what you should expect to be.

It feels good to be back to handstand training

I’m not been training as much as I wish to be but getting there..will take some time to get back to it but it will happen..

When baby in bed sleeping I have no choice but do 5min conditioning in my pyjamas 🤷‍♀️🥱

Pregnancy is the most amazing thing a women can
do,our body is just amazing.I could call myself
lucky through my pregnancy as I was quiet active
till the end but I took some time to start to do any
exercise after Baby Adam was born. I did put on
16 kg through my pregnancy which I think it's a lot I
often wonder what would happen if I wouldn't be
so active i-
Still I've got 6kg plus on me which I think I'm the
heaviest Ive ever been.I try to remind myself I only
gave birth 11weeks ago…the journey will be hard to
get back to regular training.
I finding myself too heavy and I feel I have less
strength and my flexibility is even worst then
before but I'm trying to be kind to my body and
instead of punishing myself I celebrate my body
and soul and being grateful for how amazing i was
through pregnancy and birth.
Every day is a new day 💞