21/09/2026
For years, I struggled to feel happy in my body.
Before I became a personal trainer, exercise wasn't about being strong and feeling better. All I wanted to do is make myself smaller.
Pretty much every day I'd hit the cardio machines, eat as little as I could and weigh myself every day - if the number was up from yesterday, it felt like a disaster. Like I was failing.
I wanted to burn more calories than I’d eaten and a rest day would fill me with guilt and fear.
I was exercising to try and fix what I didn’t like - turns out I was doing it all wrong!
However…
When I had my first daughter it made me realise just how strong my body really was. Despite the fact that I had no idea how to exercise during or after pregnancy.
A year later, I lost my job (thanks Covid) and decided I wanted to retrain as a personal trainer.
Learning about strength training, nutrition and women's bodies completely changed the way I looked at myself.
The biggest impact was now I understood what my body needed and what really mattered.
I stopped trying to be smaller and started building a stronger body.
I'm no lighter than I was back then, but I look different.
I feel different and I think differently.
My body is stronger than it's ever been, and I'm proud of what it can do instead of constantly criticising how it looks - actually I pretty much never do this! Which is honestly, amazing.
This summer, I went on holiday and actually enjoyed it; I ate what I wanted. I drank what I wanted. I wasn't counting calories or stressing about fixing it when I got home.
That freedom is something I never thought I'd have. The best bit was when we got back and I noticed I didn’t care if I’d put on a bit of weight. I didn’t even bother to weigh myself.
If you're reading this thinking, "I wish I could feel like that..."
I really want you to know that you don't have to spend the rest of your life fighting your body.
You can learn to trust it, fuel it, get stronger and feel proud of it again.
Because I've been exactly where you are.
And I promise you, there is another way. 💖
C xx