Flux&Flow Coaching

I’m unrecognisable compared to the girl who started jiu jitsu. I can’t describe how hard this has been…but I’ll try.

I gave up so many times. For a few weeks, sometimes months, sometimes years at a time. Looking back I don’t think I was really quitting; I was taking rest to metabolise what this strong medicine had brought up, to recalibrate my nervous system before the next round.

It’s become a cliche to say that jiu jitsu helps you “get comfortable being uncomfortable”, but this doesn’t even begin to describe the process when you’re training with PTSD.

Jiu jitsu has excavated some of the darkest, most wounded parts in me. Training has been a crucible, stirring up panic attacks, shame spirals, and crises of faith.

I’ve learned that I can measure my resilience not in the absence of these feelings coming up, but in the knowing that when they do I still know I’ll come back the next day. I’ve dusted myself off and returned enough to know that good days at training can follow bad days, that often “bad days” are actually the next level of tests, initiations that allow me to sit in the fire without getting burned, trusting that I am stronger than the demons that try to keep me stuck in the past.

Alongside these battles I’ve found something that makes me feel more alive than I’ve ever been allowed to feel.
I get to flow with movement that keeps me in the present like no other meditation
I get to gain mastery in a complex language that sharpens my mind and body
I get to devote myself to a discipline that gives my life scaffolding, direction, rhythm

By my definition, jiu jitsu is a yoga practice, a spiritual path like no other.

And I never thought I’d say this, but I can finally see how much skill I’ve developed, how much my performance has improved, how much more composed I can stay in intensity, and — most importantly — how much more time I can spend being myself. For someone who has been dysregulated and ashamed my whole life, this shows just how potent a medicine this practice is.

I’ve been on a winding road, but I’m happy to have settled at my new academy , and very grateful for my supportive & compassionate teacher 🙏🏼

The first poem I’ve written all year, and it really sums up one of the key lessons. Refining my routines, repeated rhythms, dedicated discipline, no matter the internal weather — it’s become the scaffolding of the next phase of development, the support for all that’s unfolding.

My daily prayer, my offering, even when I’m not sure where it’s leading. It’s the one thing I can rely on, my footholes in the dark ✨✨✨

I’m so excited to announce this yoga and hiking retreat in the beautiful hills of Southern Spain! It’ll be an amazing opportunity to breathe fresh mountain air and get moving in stunning scenery.

Book now for something to look forward to next year, and take advantage of the EARLY early bird pricing.

🗓️20-25th October 2026
📍 Andalusia Spain

Book through link in my bio 😁

Somatic Yin & Self-Massage Event 📣

More stretching isn’t necessarily what your body needs to relieve tension. And often even regular massages don’t provide long-term relief.

Somatic Yin & Self-Massage offers an approach to develop more awareness of your body and its holding patterns, so you can discover daily practices that not only provide immediate relief, but actually reduce the amount of tension you retain.

In yin yoga we use relaxing, long-held positions to create gentle openings, and in self-massage we’ll use tennis balls to get tissues moving and fluids flowing.

The somatic element is what makes this workshop unique. Somatics is all about finely tuned self-awareness and the ability to self-regulate.

In this workshop you’ll be guided through somatic meditation alongside the self-massage techniques and yin postures, so you can learn to become attuned and sensitive to your own body and what it holds.

We’ll work with the breath, visualisation and other somatic cues to help you shift your nervous system state, which is ultimately the most important factor in mental and physical stress patterns.

All levels welcome. Ideal for sports and stress recovery 😌

🗓️ Sun 14th Sept, 12:30-2:30pm
📍 Wimbledon & livestreamed
Book via link in my bio 🙏🏼

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🌀 Working with me ✨True healing & growth happens gradually, through awareness, compassion and humility.

Through our work together, this client has learned to cultivate these qualities, and is noticing the shift happening from the inside out.

Most forms of therapy can help you understand the patterns that keep you stuck, but few can actually help you rewire the system so you can be more fully yourself, more present, more alive.

If you’ve been trying to work through blocks that keep you stressed or unfulfilled, read more about my my 1:1 offerings through the link in my bio ❤️