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Such a beautiful day today… 🌞 find myself drifting to memories of our home we shared… 🥹 what would we have been doing today if you were still here…?
I can feel you, my arms ache, some days more than others and today is one of those days.
Miss you bub, all the time…♥️🫶🌹🙏
Wish we’d taken more photos… do I have enough to last me a lifetime?

Happy Heavenly Birthday Kevvy ♥️ spent the day with you yesterday…watched the sunrise with you this morning….🌞 it’s been a really emotional couple of days to be honest, harder than last year for some reason…. A lot of memories flooding in like they were yesterday so its been a roller coaster 🌺 but thats to be expected..

Hey I went back to our house, just to have a look…in case you were there…you weren’t abd our trees been cut down 😢 but I weeded the garden n sat and just hung out, I remember everything with you like it was yesterday.

Love you Kevvy.
I hope you’re at peace 🌹♥️🙏
I feel you’re at peace
You’ll never be forgotten, We think of you every day and talk about you all the time…

Rest in love beautiful # #

Thinking of you tonight… it’s been a tough couple days… wish I had your advice.
Reading through some papers and looking at some photos.

A reminder of what a wonderful man you were, how many people you helped while battling life yourself… these are a few, I literally had100s of messages, almost every one had a story about you Kev… you stayed real… appreciating that now more than ever. So rare.

I hope you’re ok where you are, I hope you’re free, I hope you’re happy.

Thank you 🙏 I hope you hear me # # #

Well that’s another year done & dusted. My New Years resolution last year was to just make it through one day at a time…. I did that 😀🙏🌹 This year I have plans, I have goals I have every intention on scoring, I realise I’ll be “healing” and “grieving” for the rest of my life so I have to learn how to live and achieve at the same time. I’ve hibernated, had a lot of time to reflect & learn and I’m ready to come back!!

I wouldn’t have had the tools to get where I am today without Kev in my heart…. I love you Kevvy, I feel your hand on my shoulder when I need you, I hear your voice when I have no answers and I feel your presence when I feel lonely. Thank you my darling….

Happy new year everyone. I love you all… have a happy and safe 2026. ♥️💥❤️🤔💕

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Reflecting today on this journey I’ve had no choice but to take… some days are so much harder than others. I’ve tried to surround myself with people who have only the best intentions but sometimes one will slip through… someone you might have known most of your life then you realise this person slithered into your life with an agenda.

Betrayal only hits hard the people who understand what LOYALTY is.

Remembering “The best of them” today… old school teachings. Loyalty.
Solid til the end.

Love you all, miss you all so much.
Feel better just flicking through some photos. Makes me remember who I am and the s # I won’t tolerate…

I know who’s got my back.. ❤️👌

Grateful to have had these amazing people in my life….I’ll never forget where I’ve come from and who shaped me.

Thinking of you tonight…
Missing you…
So much love Kevvy, miss you madly.
❤️🙏❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

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Oh my god Kevvy I miss you so so much… I’d do absolutely anything, ANYTHING to cuddle you right now…

I love you bub ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️😭😭😭😭😭

Well today, 16th August 2025 marks 3 years that Kevs been gone. This isn’t a date I like to dwell on or celebrate, we do that on his birthday….

So rather than focus on his departure, I just wanted to touch on what our soldier left behind for us.

I still get messages and phone calls through RONIN with stories and reminders of Kevs teachings and his instructionals, one in particular was from a coach teaching children and they just weren’getting the hang of some of the submissions so this coach used one of Kevs methods and used his videos and he said they “got it” straight away to his relief and delight! That right there is what Kev did it for and if he can live on in a Dojo on the other side of the world or in a backyard somewhere in South Auckland he’d be happy.

Kev wasn’t just about MMA of course and he left with us SO much wisdom and insight…. Some things he and I talked about i am only resonating with now… and I “get it” Kev!! I understand.

Kev had a way of connecting with people on a whole different level… so many of you already know this, he had something perhaps Intuitive which is why those who knew him loved him… he gave people the ability to be EXACTLY who they are without judgment or prejudice so there was always a sense of freedom in his company and I loved that too ❤️🙏

We’ve come a long way in 3 years, I know people say not to look back just keep going forward but I do look back because sometimes I feel we’re at a stand still, it’s only in reflecting I’m assured of our journey that we keep on “keeping on”..,, Kane has gone from my baby to a heavyweight… he’s becoming a man now and we’ve had a few laughs over how Kev would have handled some of his situations… no doubt with humour and long walks n talks ❤️

Aside from many changes to my hair I think I’m still the same me… that raw pain does subside enough to start to live life again…it’s always there but I have more control over when it rises.

I miss Kev every single day and when my head is clear or I’m gardening or cleaning my car my thoughts always drift to him and past conversations, funny memories, words of advice… he’s always with me.

I feel blessed to have gotten to here, with support from Kevs family, my family, close friends and supporters of RONIN it’s been a fu # hard road, I would’nt wish this on anyone, but it’s vital we look back with positive, happy memories for Kev. He deserves to be remembered for all those good things he put into our lives so that’s what we’re doing.

We love you Kevvy, every single day you are loved, you are remembered and you are celebrated. You could not possibly ever be forgotten…

Resting together;

Kevin Hay
Tony Renata
Dave Beaver
Monty Bhana

May they all rest in love and peace ❤️
Angels of Gods Army 🙏

I watched some funny home videos we’d made today… I laugh while I’m watching them, I remember every moment as if it were yesterday… then the reality still suckerpunches the life out of me, still can’t believe your gone. Miss you so much, I always will, we love you and talk about you every single day, I’m sure you hear us 🙏❤️🫶