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Self reflection done and just sharing a little of my thoughts. Few months before Ramadan 2025, recently i been turning to religion, purely to look for answers, also deep down believe there is one true God, the creator of this world, plus there are alot of madness in this world that are unexplainable. As a born muslim, i didn’t practice and from little knowledge that i have, i didn’t actually understand into deeper meaning or purpose of why we should this,that or why we are prohibited to doing such and such. Plus, what is obligatory and what isn’t. Also lots of people’s opinions which gives me doubts.

Certain points of my life, i did try going into being a good muslim, I was following people’s instructions and opinions, trying too hard until i overwhelmed myself plus doubts here and there. Some point when i tried again, things didn’t go well again, and mixed along with my schizophrenic mind, i just think in a weird way haha.

Religion was tough for me, it felt like burden alot. But recently i got another chance to learn again. This time, i felt confident and safe. The few who has guided me into Islam you know who you are. I dont see judgement for how i was living and think. It opened up my heart to seek knowledge from real ones, trusted ones and even authentic books of Islam. I see how beautiful it is and realised when i used to think its a burden, for example pray 5 times a day, i realised it is actually more of being disciplined, grateful and like taking small breaks from life’s madness to whisper to my Lord, which i learned the meaning of those arabic words we have to use in prayers.

Before 2025 started, my goal for the year was to try to be more consistent with 5 daily prayers. I knew fasting is really difficult for me. So i didn’t rushed and overwhelmed myself. I focus on what i feel is right for myself first, still slowly changing to be better muslim for my Lord. So i wasn’t consistent with fasting, not even close to being almost full month but, i felt it was the most meaningful Ramadan i ever had, Alhamdulillah. It wasn’t a peaceful Ramadan as what i thought I should feel, from how others describe it, but i do felt the peace inprayers despite madness.

Honoured to take a personal session with a former professional kickboxer or shoot boxer, go look up what is shootboxing! In Toyohashi, does personal trainings there. 🥊

Been reflecting alot, realised alot and still observing alot. I make mistakes as well here and there just like everyone else. What we say or do without realising. Some struggles we have that we dont talk about, but staying positive and sharing good vibes around others, much respect Alhamdulillah for everything! Nobody knows what the future holds, but keep going, stay positive, stay humble even when it seems you’re on top of the world. Happy New Year everyone! 👊🏽🏆

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