Yoga Endeavour

I didn’t come to yoga looking for enlightenment.

I came to it because life broke me.

Not when cancer hit.
Or through divorce and single motherhood.
Moving across the world (and begrudgingly back again) didn’t do it either.

I just kept pushing through all of it, suffering very silently and very “successfully.”

Until grief finally brought me to my knees.

When my best friend died suddenly, something cracked open in me that I couldn’t intellectualize or outrun. I couldn’t work harder to escape it. I couldn’t fix it. I couldn’t shove it down with productivity and discipline the way I had everything else.

I remember reading somewhere that grief is just love with nowhere to go. And that was exactly it.

So I found myself back on my mat, practicing yoga in the quiet of my attic because it was the only place where my mind became still and my heart felt a little less broken.

At first it was just movement.
Then I learned prāṇāyāma.
Prāṇāyāma led to meditation.
Meditation expanded to yoga philosophy.

And slowly, yoga stopped being something I did for temporary relief and started changing the way I experienced my entire life.

I learned to pause before reacting.
To observe my thoughts instead of immediately becoming them.
To sit with discomfort without collapsing into it.

And all that love that had nowhere to go slowly started turning inward. Into healing. Into compassion. Into care for myself in a way I had never really known before.

My cold dark heart started pushing some of it back out into the world again.

That’s the part of yoga I care most about now.
How it teaches us to stay present through uncertainty.
How it softens our relationship to suffering.
How it helps us move through life with a little more awareness, steadiness, and grace.

Thank you for having me on the Broken to Brave podcast 🤍

You can listen to the full episode through the link in my bio.

And if you want to explore this work for yourself, I created a free 5-day experience called The Breath Shift to help you begin working with your breath more intentionally.

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