09/21/2026
Officially 4 years with multiple sclerosis…
…and forever to go.
It doesn’t matter how much time passes, I think this will always be a heavy day for me. I still vividly remember when my doctor told me, “There’s no cure.”
One thing no one warned me about is that you continue to grieve your diagnosis because forever is a long time.
You know it’s forever when you’re told there’s no cure, but actually living with that reality is different.
When my diagnosis anniversary came around today, I was reminded of that all over again.
So yes, I’m sad. I grieve that I may never feel my feet firmly planted on the ground again. That my hands may always be numb. That I’ll continue to battle chronic fatigue. And that there’s so much uncertainty around how my MS could progress and what that could mean for my body in the future.
I let myself feel all of that today.
But I also thought about everything I’m grateful for and counted my blessings.
I gave a toast with my family today and started sobbing thinking about how they’ve shown up for me through all of this. I truly don’t know where I would be without them.
I’m grateful that I’m still able to be myself and chase my dreams. I’m grateful for the people in my life who haven’t just stood by me through my diagnosis, but have leaned in closer. And I’m grateful for all of you who continue to show up as I share the highs, the lows and the reality of navigating life with MS.
There is grief in knowing this is forever.
But there is also so much life to live within that forever.
Thank you for being here through it all 🫶🏼