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All night dance party 🪩 with DJs Scotty B and Nikki V spinning house grooves, rolling tech house, heavy bass and a late night B2B!

Lock in and let loose.

Night Shift: 9/12, 9pm-2am • $10 cover

Since I was a kid I knew I always felt too much. Too much joy, too much pain, too much eagerness, too much doubt. Always living in technicolor and the saturation turned up 110%—it’s the source of my creative core, and probably why I’ve always been a theater kid at heart. The drama! 🎭

Some days I wish I felt nothing—not too much or too little, just in the middle. Neutral, like my Swiss blood.

Medication helps mute the colors, but it will also make you brutally aware of the fundamental missing pieces of your joy: community, purpose, and passion.

At least, that’s what I’ve come to call the fundamentals. And without those three, it’s easy for your hormones and brain chemistry to swallow you whole and pull you under.

Grief, loneliness, social anxiety and self-doubt consumed most of my thoughts last year. They were the threads that stitched together my daily living, with loneliness leading the way. I couldn’t find joy, only more obstacles blocking my way. I questioned my job, my future, my purpose and myself.

Loneliness is like a broken toe you keep stubbing. You can live with a broken toe, maybe no one will even notice you limping, but you are constantly aware of it and every little bump that hits.

The most beautiful lesson this pain has taught me is that friends do exist in multitudes and various timeliness. And neither hundreds of miles nor hours of time zones can keep those connections apart.

I stand here today grateful for the people that showed up, checked in, and pulled that joy out of me again.

I am most grateful to my closest friends, especially the ones I’ve traveled to see, and my wife Carly. 🥹 Thank you for hearing me and supporting me through the toughest times.

Bonus points: I’ve even learned how to fall back in love with my creative center, and express myself through the celebration of music and dance. 🪩

I still catch waves of loneliness and thoughts of “what the f**k am I doing here?” I try to breathe slowly through those moments and remind myself that WE are setting plans into motion for change.

I’m not healed, but I am healing. Aren’t we all?

Check on your people, because some of us are just really good at pretending. 💜

2024 was a year where the lows outweighed the highs, especially in the first half of the year. Carly and I worked hard to break on through to the other side, and find bits of joy where we could. Luckily when it got the darkest, I found the light on the dance floor 🪩

But I’d rather remember 2024 as the year I got into crop tops and skater jeans ✌️

Here’s to some of my favorite moments, and fits, throughout the year 💜

“Think you can stop what we do? I doubt it” 😤

Shout-out to the photographer at the PRT Competition, cause these are EPIC!

(I promise I will properly shout you out when I find out your actual account 😅)

Ithaca, NY • 🪴 My collegiate stomping grounds from 2009-2013, where the hills are still a climb, the Thai food is just as good as I remember, and the gorges are always worth the trek.

Starting to scroll through the camera roll of our recent roadtrip, and reminisce by location. Gone for 28 nights, and Ithaca is where we spent 2 of them, though we could have easily stayed longer.

Very grateful we got to see my dear college friend, Ella Carr 💜 while we were all in town.

Special shout-outs go to and for being an Ithaca student’s staple joints.

Ithaca, we’ll be back! 👋

More 📸 to come from our travels, but this one’s the most quintessential New England shot of them yet!

🚀 Spice up your routine with this Descending Ladder workout! Perfect for a quick, full-body burn. 💪🔥

Descending Ladder:
10-8-6-4-2 reps of:

Goblet Squats
Push-ups
KB Swings

Get a full-body workout in less than 20 minutes and crush your fitness goals! ⏱️💥

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Today, August 15th of the ruthless year that has been 2024, is Carly and my 9 year anniversary 🥂💛❤️

It marks the day we started being an us. Quite literally down to the seconds when we first met in Lexington, Kentucky and knew we had made an instant connection that was meant to last.

That feeling of unity, of us, has never felt more powerful than this year.

I am ever so grateful to be here, in this present moment, with Carly by my side to “do life with” and all the complexities, heartaches and wonder it holds.

Here’s to the very FIRST picture of US 🥰, as well as the MOST RECENT picture of US 🤣