05/26/2026
May there comes the time I only can look back at what I achieved!
I try to remember I was called off at the age of 22.
You cannot do this
You are unable to work
Just lay down
Rest & take drugs
Rest & take drugs
Rest & take drugs
You can never run again,
Running is not good for your deasease
Don't move
Take these 10 drugs forever
Exercise is not good for you.
It's all in your head
Now it is too late we cannot do anything for you anymore
Take new drugs
You got asthma
You are too old it is normal to be sick all the time
The future is the wheelchair....
We don't know anything about those deseases
There is no therapy, accept that you have to live in 15% or less lifequality forever.
After 15 years I can say my only mistakes I ever made that worsened me were listen to the wannabe 'experts' called doctor And usually they worsened me irreversible.
I am happy about the lonely fight as that were the only things that helped me.
Nomatter what, it was meant to be a restricted and short life.
With the exception of (long covid into PCS 18months) competition-dates help me on the last years to find a way to fight to get out of bed.
I got pulled into it in 2013 respectivly 2019 when the people around me didn't know or didn't understood how Impossible it was for me. Because "it is not written over the face"
Was it fun, no!
But hell especially in 2013-2016 stepping into running road race. I can tell you from the hundreds of participants there was less than 1% as surprised and proud on themself then I was. Because I knee the truth. The truth that I couldn't walk stairs anymore in 2012. The truth that I cried everyday on my way to work from indescripable pain. The truth that I had to act 7/7 that I am ok, while I could barely stay standing or sitting from terrible pain and chronic fatigue. The truth that I got called out by doctors 'it is all in your head' and and and...
I knew it I was silent. I was terrified about how bad doctors and society are
When I stepped on the startline I was in pain I had joint blocades, doubts, ...
I stepped on, the start came and I ran, I ran to survive and as if it'd be my last time
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