05/10/2026
There was a version of me that believed keeping other people comfortable was more important than being fully myself.
So I stayed quiet.
I people-pleased.
I shape-shifted.
I deferred to other people’s needs, opinions, emotions, and expressions while slowly disconnecting from my own.
And the hard part is…
I didn’t realize I was abandoning myself.
I thought I was being kind.
Easygoing.
Adaptable.
But underneath that was fear.
Fear of judgment.
Fear of rejection.
Fear of taking up space.
As a younger man, there were parts of my sexuality I hid because it didn’t feel safe to be fully seen.
And even later in life, while performing on stages and receiving applause, there were still moments where I struggled to fully inhabit myself while being perceived.
That’s the part people don’t always talk about.
You can be visible…
and still disconnected from yourself.
Healing has been learning to notice the small moments where I leave myself.
The moments where I override what I feel.
Shrink.
Silence myself.
Say yes when I mean no.
And little by little, I’ve practiced something different.
Staying.
Speaking.
Taking up space.
Letting myself be seen without abandoning myself in the process.
What a transformation that has been.
And honestly?
I want that for other people too.
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05/06/2026
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05/03/2026
Visible… but still hiding
For a long time, I thought visibility and authenticity were the same thing.
I thought that because people could see me…
that meant I was fully showing up.
But looking back now, I can see that wasn’t true.
There were parts of my life where I stood on stages.
Dancing.
Singing.
Performing on Broadway.
People applauded.
People noticed me.
People saw my work.
And yet…
I often felt deeply uncomfortable being perceived.
After shows, I would rush past people at the stage door.
Avoid attention.
Get home as quickly as possible.
Part of me loved the validation.
And another part of me wanted to disappear.
That tug of war lived in me for a long time.
What I understand now is this:
I wasn’t just hiding from other people.
I was hiding from myself.
Because being fully seen didn’t feel safe in my body yet.
And I think a lot of us live this way without realizing it.
We become visible…
without actually letting ourselves be here.
We perform.
We overachieve.
We shape-shift.
We give people pieces of ourselves…
while quietly holding the rest back.
Not because we’re fake.
Not because we’re weak.
But because at some point…
being fully ourselves didn’t feel safe.
Healing, for me, has been learning how to stay.
To stay present in my body while being seen.
To stop abandoning myself in moments of visibility.
And now?
I’m in a different season.
I want to take up space.
I’ve earned it.
I deserve it.
And honestly?
I want that for other people too.
Not performative visibility.
Not attention for the sake of attention.
But the kind of safety that allows you to fully be yourself…
without leaving yourself in the process.
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