01/10/2026
I’ve been quiet here for a while, and the truth is that part of the reason is OCD.
I’ve lived with OCD for as long as I can remember. According to my family, there were signs of it as early as age three. Lately, I’ve been doing consistent exposure-based therapy, and it has made me much more aware of how often control, perfection and needing things to feel “right” have shaped the way I work—including the way I create content.
For years, polished images, carefully planned videos and getting everything just right felt like part of the job.
Lately, I’ve had to ask myself where good work ends and compulsion begins.
Sometimes the answer has been that I don’t post at all.
And that’s part of what I wish more people understood about OCD. It is not just about liking a clean house or wanting things organized. For me, it can interfere with my ability to move forward at all when something doesn’t feel right.
I’m still figuring out what it looks like to create, work and live without needing everything to feel perfect first.
October is OCD Awareness Month, and the timing is not lost on me.
I’m sharing this because OCD is real, it can hide behind things that look productive from the outside, and this is part of my life too.