12/14/2024
Almost 2 years since my last class and I just want to cry... I was hoping to be back in full swing way before this. Life unfortunately had other plans for me.
I hurt my knee pretty bad performing a couple months after my last class. I rested and tried hard to let it heal, but kept hurting it to the point where I fear it will never be 100% again. Got to the point I realized I had to swear off heels and be a way less clumsy person than I usually am, both of which were very hard for me 😅
I have never had any major injuries and I could have never expected how this was going to affect me mentally and physically.
It has been a long healing journey for me and at a point, I almost gave up. Hence how long it's been. S**t, I still feel like giving up, but I refuse to! I want to heal and come back stronger than ever for myself and my community 💪🏾 I've healed up to the point where I am no longer limping or in pain everyday, but I do still have pain. I have gotten through a few short Buti workouts on my own, but my knee is still not strong enough for me to hold regular classes.
I am still healing and strengthening my knee.
I am still healing mentally.
I have been procrastinating on making this post for a long time but am working on doing the hard things and getting through it. Being a yogi/butisattva is just as much mental as it is physical.
I am going to deactivate this page until I'm back because seeing it everyday is getting harder. Makes me feel like I failed, like I let people down. I know that isn't the case but I also wanted to let people know why my page hasn't been updated or anything since my last class. I didn't give up, I didn't fail. I had a hardship and will get through it and back to what I really want to do. I just want to make sure I am fully present and able to provide the safe, healing space I always wanted to.
I went into this fitness journey and knew it'd be just that: a fu***ng journey. Not one with a time frame and not one with a normal/linear progression. I am currently on a downturn but working on picking myself back up and all I can hope is that you all will be there and ready to do some Buti yoga with me when I am back.
Love you all and happy holidays 💜
