Miz Shawna Fit

Mood board from a 5 month old! 😆⚡️💙


Blowing raspberries is our favorite pastime. We want to crawl & walk, it’s so Frustrating that this body won’t do what his brain tells it too. Love staring at mom, laughing at mom and also, I bite her and she gets upset & it’s funny! I love playing in fort and hiding out, I HATE taking naps. Hanging with dad is so cool. He’s so funny! He reads me books and gives me the best bathes. I really love making my parents happy and in the next second being a silly monster. It’s just hard being 5 months old, I’m really seeing the world with fresh new eyes and learning to move my body in so many new ways! So much to do! So much to say! I love to giggle & play!

I turned 41 on Caturday! Thank you all for your birthday wishes! Birthdays have always been weird for me. (Deadbeat dad & unloving, mean mother who loves beer.) Having Finneas and seeing how much care, attention, gentleness and love has obviously had me super aware of all that I’ve missed out on. I’ve been in therapy for many years, obviously I KNOW this, I’ve felt an empty dark hole inside me just wanting be loved since early childhood. It’s a entirely different experience seeing how easy it is to love your child and want to do everything in your power to be a good parent and protect your kiddo. So, these past 5 months of raising Finneas with only Ty & Foxy has been deeply challenging on so many levels. I haven’t had the honor of having family come and help, or even our chosen family. I’ve had days where I see new moms on here post pictures with grandparents and I just sob. As Britney would say, my loneliness is killing me 😹 But you know what?! I’m doing a really fu***ng good job at raising Finneas. He is so loved. He squeals of excitement when he sees me and It makes my life feel so complete. I’m so proud of myself for doing this hard inner work and showing up every week to face my demons so I can have this experience. There are very few humans who know this journey. A common statement I get from medical and mental health professionals who know the details of my past is: I can’t believe you’ve survived all that. So, I’d like to give a special shout-out to my younger self! She always believed I’d find love and that life wasn’t what I was conditioned to believe. She never gave up on life, even when she felt worthless and unlovable. We can both grief the love we never got, it’s valid and how we can open up space for more love. Becoming a mom is hard, but becoming a mom in the middle of a global pandemic is harder. As everything else in my life has proved, this will only emphasize my Unicorn PowerZ so I can spread more magic! Grateful for for bringing home the 🥓 & keeping safe at home! Feeling SAFE at home means I’m thriving. I’ve come a long way baby! 🎂🤘🏻😆🥰 Photo cred : 😍 XO

I miss my cool, colorful hair & muscles! But look at my cool, colorful & huge baby! I wish I had a squat rack so I can TRY and keep up with my son. He’s 20 lbs at 5 months 😆 I also wish we could be out of this pandemic 😷 and have gyms open so I could work AND workout! But, 2020 is complicated. 🙂 2020 the year we all tried to make our year. 🤷‍♀️☀️💕

Thanksgiving 2019 > 2020 ... Somethings change, somethings stay the same. ❤️⚡️💔 Miss you Cooper 🐶

Who wore it better? 🦃 😍


Very thankful for these silly weirdos. As well as those of you who helped us and showed massive support within the first 2 months of Our new life as parents. May you all stay safe, healthy and as happy as can be during these strange times. 🍁🤎🦃🧡

My second favorite human to have a coffee date ☕️💙 We went on an adventure to Koreatown this weekend to the new Chapman Court location. Finneas & Foxy enjoyed themselves, even though It looks like Finneas might be judging me 🤣💕 He loved the cool design!

This photo just popped up in FB memories from a million years ago. I assume these girls are in college now. Time sure does fly when you watch kids grow & dance 🦋🌸 was the best job, with the best bosses! I seriously can not wait for Finneas and I to take our first Happy Feet class together. I really dream of that becoming a reality. For now, I give him private lessons and watch him get mad at me bc I’m the hard teacher lol.

Congratulations President-Elect Biden & Madame Vice President-Elect Kamala Harris 🇺🇸 Democracy wins. 🇺🇸 So much to say, but I’m just gonna sit in these good feelings bc it’s been too long since I’ve felt hope! We did it ya’ll. Let us never get too comfortable again! Stay awake. Xo 🍾🎉💫💙

So much love & deep gratitude to - a true American She-Ro!!! 💙💙💙