Moksha Yoga and Wellness LLC

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This post for anyone who struggles with feelings of or

I have mentioned in my previous posts that I always felt unworthy of love, not enough, and had fears of being abandoned because of spending a lot of younger years alone.

From years of journaling and self-reflection, I have been able to recognize why I struggled in relationships especially when it comes to friends or romantic relationships.

What I am about to share is deep and requires some self-awareness and ability to look at ourselves with an open mind and heart. No criticism.

We encounter all kinds of people in our lives. Some stick around and some decide to ghost you without explaining. When that happens, the first thing we tend to do is question our self-worth...was I not enough? what did I did wrong? did I say or do something that was inappropriate? no one likes me...
All kinds of self-doubt creeps in..
Immediately after, we start to rationalize the situation...blame the other person, not meant to be, find all kinds of faults in them...this is an act of self-preservation or self-defense.
Then, we build up a wall or a fake facade of trying to toughen up but on the inside the energy is pretty strong. It just needs another experience to get triggered again. This is the cycle.

Instead, if we take a step back and maybe sit with the pain or the energy to surface...or journal...we can find the roots of the pain in our past experiences when we felt abandoned or felt unlovable because of our appearance or family or whatever the reason might be. For me it was when my dad told me I was supposed to be a boy (unwanted), when I was told I was fat and laughed at (unworthy), when no one wanted to be my friend (loneliness or abandoned).

When we sit with the pain, the associated energy releases itself and we recognize that it is not the person to blame but it is a repressed part of ourselves that got triggered.
This applies to all areas of our lives.

Food for thought ✨️

Is it the destination or the journey? ✨️

When I began my yoga journey, I found myself feeling the enormous pressure of achieving a final pose. Inversions and arm balances take the prize for "advanced" yoga and someone's ability to stand on their head or hands is considered an advanced practioner. A humble pose like (mountain pose) or (triangle) is considered beginner..or mediocre. No wonder the first thing I hear from a newbie..."I am not flexible"..

I was so overwhelmed that I even began questioning if I will ever be a good at yoga...
When I joined Iyengar yoga, I learned how each pose can be so intricate and so much more advanced given the following one rule-
"Approach the pose with a fresh set of eyes every single time regardless of how many times you may have done it".

This was definitely a game-changer. When I learned and am still learning Tadasana, I found myself doing all poses effortlessly. Tadasana humbles you. It is a very hard pose to understand and can be used as a roadmap for thousands of poses in the yoga library.
I did leave the Iyengar tradition after a decade only because two things I didn't learn from my teachers..
-benefits.
-what happens during.

This is where the magic is ✨️
We get so caught up on achieving the final shape of the pose that we miss everything in between...setting up a strong base, acknowledge and accept our limitations, honor our limitations using appropriate props which can and will change each day (ebb and flow), find stillness and composure in the pose, noticing the inner resistance (nervous system, clenching, tightness,.etc.) and be able to slow the breathing like while holding the alignment, and doing all the things as aforementioned to actually "receive" the benefits (physical, mental, emotional, spiritual) ...these are things no one taught me. I had to learn this in my own practice and this is exactly what I teach.

I see so many people spending $$ on yoga and yoga clothing and make it more of a workout for aesthetics or for follows. Yoga has so much more to it and I firmly believe it is a mind- body-soul practice if done right and taught right.

Details on website.

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A vulnerable post...
As I returned from the yoga retreat, the feelings of kicked in.
I spent the last week sharing pearls of wisdom with the retreat participants. Lots of words from my own inner work kept flowing out to help and uplift others.
When I returned home, it hit. I thought I had it figured out but when I asked for testimonials from the participants (twice) and didn't get any, feelings of doubt kept coming up...
Was I not enough?
Did I do enough?
Did my work feel inauthentic?
Did they not like me?
Did they just come for the vacation and I took care of the logistics for them?

These feelings and doubts have origins in my past...nothing to do with the people. Coming from a background of feelings of unworthiness, when you put your heart and soul into something but not receive "validation", the shadows come out.
This was a moment of spiritual practice for me. ✨️
I shared a lot about energy this past week. What you store inside is what reflects on the outside. I was feeling a lot of inner resistance and feelings of inadequacy and no amount of "distraction" was helping. I had to get in touch with the inner energy and work from that place. Lot of journaling and processing. Yes, I did have to process it with one of the participants (close dear friend), and her validation did help but I knew that it was still an external validation. I had to work from the inside out. Release the heavy energy of unworthiness and accept and surrender. Acceptance of what I offered from a place of authenticity and not changing that one bit and surrender to the outcome.
Of course, the friend advised that returning home and getting busy can take away the freshness of the experience and be better to ask for feedback while memory is still fresh.
A learning curve for the future but wanted to share my very human experience of how we are always looking for feedback or some form of external validations for the work we do in the world. The moment we don't get it, we spiral out and start doubting our self-worth.
It took a week of journaling and inner processing to re-center.
It is all about energy ✨️

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I am not usually the creative kind when it comes to meals. I default to the tried and tested staples but yesterday wanted to try a new spin on one of my favorite breakfasts

Here is my creativity on Mango Lassi Overnight Oats
(it turned out better than I thought 😍)

0.25 cups Sprouted Oats
4oz Almond milk or any milk of choice
Half cup Greek yogurt
0.5 tsp Cardamom powder
1 Tbsp Chia seeds
1 Tbsp Maple syrup
Handful of almonds (soaked overnight and chopped)
1 cup fresh or frozen mango chunks

Let me know if you try 😋

As I was teaching my Yin class this morning, we came across a pose that forced us to reflect on inner resistance in order to let go. Fear of what will happen without really knowing what will happen is something we all experience in our lives. We keep ourselves stuck and stay comfortable without ever exploring beyond the obvious and the familiar.
Many of us are not even aware of the inner resistance and what it actually feels like in our bodies..
One way, and the only way I know, is to become still. Whether in a yoga pose or just sitting still without any distractions... we face our fears which is nothing but memories stored in our psyche.
Pushing boundaries and stepping into the unknown is not about accomplishments and recognitions. In my world, it is about freeing our souls and experiencing freedom from the chains of all the suffering we feel in our physical, emotional, mental and spiritual bodies.
Journaling and becoming still takes us back beyond the mind to become and experience true everlasting .
The freedom on the other side cannot be explained in words or perceived through the mind.
It is something that can only be experienced 💕✨️🙏

Health is not the same as well-being. Health is mostly on the surface level or related to the physical body- optimal weight, optimal blood markers, optimal energy and focus, and showing up each day to "perform" optimally by eating healthy food and getting quality sleep.

Well-being is beyond that. It is related to all three bodies-
, and

Joy, relationships, faith/beliefs, social connections/community, creativity, home environment, purpose, etc.
These are some of the other areas that, in addition to good physical health, comple the full circle of well-being.

We miss out on so many aspects of our lives which require us to pause to reflect. We are so "busy" that whenever we have a moment of doing nothing, we fill it with endless and mindless scrolling on social media or binge watching.
It is in the pause that we can reflect on parts of our emotional and spiritual bodies that need our attention. Sadness, boredom, anxiety, discomfort are classic signs of something missing and instead of reflecting and processing, we distract ourselves.

As an Integrative Nutrition Health Coach, I work with clients to recognize and come face to face with all their bodies and parts.
Answers are already within each one of us...just hiding underneath the distractions and avoidance.

I can help you bring those parts of yourselves to the surface and you can experience a life of well-being that feels fulfilling and doesn't need anything external to feel better....because it comes from within. ✨️

My health coaching program details are on my website.
Follow link in bio.

Generous offer for this ☀️ valid from June 1st through July 31st,.2026- 25% off the entire program 🌄

Make this year the year of change. Before we know it, we will be at the end taking our last few breaths..reflecting on the life we lived. How do you choose to pass on....in a state of total peace where you feel a sense of overall well-being or in a state of feeling accomplished for all the accomplishments (weight, marathons, medals, degrees, money)...or in a state of guilt (shoulds and coulds).

Food for thought..☀️✨️🙏