Andy Petranek

I was about to record a completely different video when a text came in from someone I hadn't talked to in over a year. He wanted me to know the profound difference I'd made in his life. Out of nowhere.

It landed like an arrow straight to my heart. The loving kind. Tears actually came.

Here's what hit me. We move so fast that we forget we're already making a difference just by being who we are. You don't have to do something big to matter. You already do.

So slow down today. Take a breath before you spiral into everything you haven't done yet. And if someone in your life has made a difference for you, tell them. A simple text will do it.

Deliver that miracle. Then watch what happens.

There's a scene near the end of the last episode of season 2 of Landman () that came through to me like a 911 message from my soul.

Tommy, Billy Bob Thornton's character, tells his wife, Angela, that hard times are coming. Then he says, but not today. Today we win.

And her reply is what got me:

She say, slowly... Baby, I win every day. So do you. You just don't see it. You've got to slow down enough to notice.

That's been alive in me every day since.

It was like someone took ahold of my shoulders and shook me to wake me up... so that I'd remember!

Because the story most of us run is that we're losing. Keep your head down, work harder, get more, and then maybe you'll win.

But the truth is, winning is all around you.

You woke up this morning. Let's just start with that. You're breathing. You've got people you love and who love you, you're making it work, whatever that means for you. There's so much winning happening in your life that you're moving too fast to see.

You've already won. That doesn't mean things stop being hard. The pain's still real, the lessons still come. And underneath all of it, the win is already there.

So try this tomorrow. Before anything else, tell yourself:

Today I Win.

Say it over and over... like an incantation. It's part of my morning now.

Save this and try it. Then tell me how it lands.

We dread feeling dread.

A hard feeling shows up. Fear, anger, that low hum of anxiety with no clear cause. And most of us have one move: find the problem, fix it, get it out of me. This doesn't belong here. It's not fair that I feel this way.

Here's what I'm starting to see. You can't fix a feeling the way you fix a problem.

A friend gave me a picture for it last week that I can't shake. Trying to feel only the good emotions is like standing in your backyard at night, looking up, and yelling at the stars to move a little to the left. You can yell all night. They're not moving. You just get tired.

That's what a lot of us are doing with what we feel. Fighting a fight that was never winnable, then reading the exhaustion as proof we need to try harder.

So I'm trying something else. Letting the joy be there. And the love. And also the anger and the fear. All of it allowed in the room, without me rushing to throw any of it out.

I don't have this figured out. I'm trying it on. Try it on too, and tell me what happens.

Ever come back from vacation and think, how am I going to do this life again?

I got back from seven days away and that's exactly where I am today.

Here's the thing... my life is good... GREAT, actually. And still, I've got both the "I don't want it" and the "I want it" running at the same time, and I can't get those two to agree.

What I noticed today is that I'm uncomfortable being uncomfortable. So the machine inside me kicks on, trying to fix the thing it decided is broken, trying to move me somewhere other than here.

But what if I could be okay not knowing? What if the uncertainty is just another experience of being alive, and I could let it sit there the way I let joy sit when it shows up.

When I'm truly in a joyful moment, I couldn't talk myself out of it even if I tried. Why? Because it's simply just a state I'm in.

What if uncertainty, or uncomfortableness is the same? Just a state I'm in.

Well, I'm in it today... and wanted to share it, live, while it's the freshest.

How about you? What does coming back to real life after a vacation actually feel like for you?

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Most entrepreneurs aren't focused on what their performance is costing them.

They're doubling, tripling, quadrupling down. They've been willing to sacrifice any cost for years, for decades, because the payoff always seems worth it in the moment.

The cost shows up later. In the looking back. The "I wish I had focused on my relationship with my kids" moment. The "I wish I had paid more attention to my health" moment. The "what was I doing all those years" moment.

You don't have to wait until you're looking back to see it.

The measure of an entrepreneur is how well they can handle it all and hold it all together.

Which is also the problem.

You can be out slaying dragons and peaked out at the strain at the same time. Crushing it on paper and rattling apart underneath. Both gauges high.

The performance is real. The cost is also real.

Most successful people only ever look at the first one. The second one is the one that's quietly running them.

I know shame doesn't work. I've known it for years.

Kindness toward yourself, meeting the old pattern with understanding instead of a verdict, that's the thing that actually creates change. I believe that completely.

And I still caught yourself this week calling myself an idiot.

I've been carrying a credit card balance for months. Have the cash to pay it off. Know the math. And every time I notice it, the self-judgment shows up first. Fast. Automatic.

What bothers me isn't the credit card. It's the war I start with myself the moment I notice something I don't like.

Thirty years of inner work and I'm still a work in progress.

How about you? Is there a war like this running in you somewhere?

Most successful people are driving through life with one gauge.

The speedometer. How fast am I going. Am I performing. Am I hitting my numbers.

What they don't realize is there's a second gauge they're not reading. The tachometer. The one that tells you what it's costing the engine to go the speed you're going.

You can be high on the speedometer and redlining the tach at the same time. The car looks fine from the outside. From inside the engine, something is about to give.

You've been reading one gauge. There were always two.

Most successful entrepreneurs have two versions of how they're doing.

One they tell the people closest to them. The spouse. The team. The friends they've known for years.

I'm fine. I've got it. I can handle it.

And one that comes out around strangers. Someone they meet on a plane. A bartender. A person at a conference they'll never see again.

That one sounds different.

I'm white-knuckling it. I don't know how I'm going to hold this together long enough for my kids to get to college. I don't know how my health is going to hold long enough for me to not die an early death. I haven't actually slept in months.

The truth comes out around strangers because there's nothing to protect.

With the people closest to you, there's everything to protect.