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“The strength to not be easily corrupted and the power to not be easily controlled.” - I find this to be incredibly attractive and inspirational.

When we pursue a life of authenticity, we must ACT fearless with our beliefs, values, purpose and interests even if we’re experiencing a bit of fear or doubt.

This is what strengthens and empowers us to be who we are, live as we’d like, lead, contribute, and have meaningful connections with others.

In this unsafe world, we can loose everything except for who we are. So, honor yourself by being yourself!

-🐺❤️

Today’s message is a simple one which I’ve been taking to heart- Life’s short, time flies, so why wait?

Work-wise, it’s been a productive week for me so far. I’ve been working towards my goals which include new offerings, services, presentations and preparing for 2 upcoming speaking engagements.

The forward momentum this week has lead to good energy, more clients, opportunities and new connections. This is generally what happens when I’m present and engaged.

I notice the same often happens with my friends and clients as well.

In my personal life, I’m also choosing to be as proactive as I can with what I’m hoping to experience and create. And the same has happened- new energy, new connections and experiences. (New growth✨!)
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Why wait if you do not need to? Remember, our time is now! Waiting often creates distance from what we’re hoping to experience and achieve in our lives. Don’t let that distance grow and put things out of reach!

-🐺❤️

This afternoon I went running through the marina to “clear my head”.

But even the energetics of the elements couldn’t calm the storm of negativity I was experiencing.

It was a lot easier to block out negative thoughts when my life was smaller and I was less aware. Back then, I had plenty of substances and well practiced avoidance behaviors to quite my thoughts and blunt/numb emotions.

*There’s a strong correlation between one’s ability to be self-aware and the impact it can have on their life.*

The truth is, there’s a part of me that’s sad, and hurting right now. And no exercise/movement nor fire, wind, earth or water, can change what’s coming up for me.

I knew this already, but a part of me was still hoping that it would 😅.

Don’t try to exercise it away,
Drink or drug it away,
F**k it away,
Screen time it away, etc.

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A better solution is for me to just sit with it, feel it, understand it and process it so I can heal and proceed forward.

However, doing this uncomfortable inner-work isn’t attractive/exciting despite knowing it’s what will help me move forward. Today, I’m tired 😪.

But I have responsibilities, goals, activities and connections that I want to show up for. I do not care to return to small life I was loved.

So I will sit, and process and heal ❤️‍🩹. So that later I can share, relate, support and hold space.

Self-love has been quite a practice for me 😅. One of the most valuable and challenging experiences on my self-growth journey has been embracing who I am.

I’ve learned the hard way that I can either be myself or TRY to be like everyone. But I can’t be like everyone else, because I’m ME! I have my own brain, body, personality, interests and experiences that make me unique.

At first, I accepted this conceptually, and then gradually learned to embrace this wholeheartedly through both inner-work and spiritual practices.

Fighting against who we are creates a stress that will never go away.

Accept yourself.
Embrace yourself.
Better yourself.
Share yourself.

-🐺🖤

This weekend, I celebrated my 39th birthday.

Prior to this, I haven’t really celebrated my birthday since I was 13 years old (with the exception of receiving some texts and enduring a dinner with the closest of my family). None of those were ever truly welcomed or a “celebration”. I would always endure the dinner for their benefit, not my own.

Perhaps it’s from the primal wound of being separated from my biological mom at birth, and/or growing up with low self-worth, or also not celebrating my birthday for the last 26 years, but I’ve never wanted others to celebrate my life. I’ve certainly never cared to.

However, this year, someone close to me expressed their want to show their love for me by celebrating my birthday and encouraged me to look at my life through a different pair of glasses- that I’ve made it through 39 years in this wild and unsafe world, and have not just survived it but have thrived independently and even made an impact in some peoples’ lives around me.

Begrudgingly, I tried to embrace this perspective and allowed myself to feel into it. It was quite uncomfortable at first.

As the day went on, my anxiety and discomfort lessened, my mood improved and I ended up celebrating my birthday by attending a nice concert at Trilogy Sanctuary. I met some great people and had a nice time.

I do believe that life is a special and beautiful gift, but it’s difficult acknowledging how special and beautiful mine has been. For that reason, I made a commitment to celebrate my birthday moving forward.

I’m thankful for the support and love I received on Saturday.

I hope to see you at my 40th!

-🐺❤️

Dearest child,

Welcome to this world. I hope that you create love in it, and embrace life just as it is.

This is a special and unsafe world. It will always transform and evolve. I hope and encourage you to transform and evolve with it!

Be as gentle as the Divine Spirit, and become strong and tough- Warrior’s blood flows through your veins.

This world is special because you are in it. And there are others like you. Find them, fight with them!

Seek inside.
Seek outside.

Transform!

I love you.

-🐺❤️

2024 Intention: Expansion

Last night, I welcomed the new year by dancing in the moonlight while Porangui performed. It was a beautiful evening in Tulum!

However, I’m not overly excited when opportunities for ecstatic dancing arise. Often, it’s the music and it’s always myself, it’s just uncomfortable for me.

It was a perfect way to honor my intention for this year, Expansion.

I understand that the greater range I have in all aspects and areas of my life, (personally, professionally, and spiritually) the greater I can experience, connect, receive, share and offer.

Expansion as a Man-
I want to be a man comfortable ecstatic dancing with his lady, just as much as I want to be her Protector, King, Alpha Wolf, Partner, and Lover.

By becoming a greater masculine, I don’t just serve her the best, I can show up better in this world.

Expansion Professionally-
I want to expand professionally so more companies and professionals experience greater performance and success.

This expansion won’t be easy. After all, I’ll pressing against my own limitations. But I understand and believe that this is the path to
greater life with greater impact.

I was fortunate to start the stroke of this year living my intention. I feeling blessed, ready and hopeful coming into this year.

Happy New Year!

🐺❤️

#2024

Ceremony Reflection ✨

Last night, Grandmother said to me, “If you don’t let go of the past, you will have nothing to hold in your future.”

My intention was for emotional healing- I had asked her to help me receive love from others, embrace connections and to have greater trust around intimacy.

I told her that I was scared to be hurt again and to experience more loss and hopelessness.

She said, “You will be hurt again, and you will experience loss. This is life in its wholeness, there is darkness and light. Be present and embrace it just as you want to embrace others.”

She touched my chest, and left.
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When I’m in fear, I am not free. When it comes love and connections, I still protect myself from the hurt of the past.

This is why I’m 38 and alone.

I do not want to be alone anymore, so my intention is to be present, and honest in my relationships moving forward. Regardless if those relationships end, if my love isn’t reciprocated, or even if my love is maliciously attacked.

I am more than a hurt man, and greater than a protector, I have well’s worth of tears and an abundance of love to share.

I’m grateful to have spoken with Grandmother, I feel her with me today, blessing me on this path.

With Love,
🐺❤️

I have an inner child who can be quite playful, spirited and recalls some REALLY good times, with closeness and love.

And my inner child also recalls being hurt, alone, empty and fearful.

At times my inner child comes out and presents himself in interesting ways. He can be quite enthusiastic and outgoing, even sheepishly shy!

He can also be withdrawn, lonely, or shut down as a way to protect himself when he’s uncomfortable or fearful.

Lately, I’ve been trying to be more aware and to better receive/support my inner child when he is hurting.

When he and I pause, regulate, explore, and process, my inner child gets to heal which helps me grow into the adult he was meant to be.

I’m currently noticing subtle situations where I still struggle to be open and receive. A big source of why I hurt inside.

When he heals, I heal too❤️‍🩹.

This evening we celebrated “The One’s” first year anniversary! I’m blessed to be a part of this amazing group of individuals! (There’s like 30 members missing from this photo!)

Being a ProVisors member has connected me with amazing business professionals and industry leaders. Not to mention, I’ve made a great network of resourceful friends.

Big congratulations to Mike, our group leader. And big thanks to him as well 🙏🏾!

Here’s to a great year ahead for Orange County’s, The One 🔥!

-🐺❤️




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We had an amazing first Breathwork Session ! We were filled to capacity with over 300 people in attendance 🥳!

Thank you to all who came for Pranayama and healing 🙏🏾✨❤️!

We will be sharing again on Sunday at 5pm! Please join us!
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