04/07/2026
Celebrating the morning miracle of getting everyone out the door in time for school and a doc appt all by myselfš¬. The car chats with this crew are my favešā„ļø.
I help women stop wanting Mr./Ms Wrong back and FIND SOMEONE BETTER
04/07/2026
Celebrating the morning miracle of getting everyone out the door in time for school and a doc appt all by myselfš¬. The car chats with this crew are my favešā„ļø.
04/04/2026
I know. I need a new watch.
04/02/2026
I woke up this morning to an email from a local Santa Barbara business I love & trust.
So I was pretty taken aback to see, at the end of the email, a book rec by Deepak Chopra.
If youāre not aware, his name has come up multiple times in connection with the Epstein Files. And yes, there are documented messages, including one to Jeffrey Epstein that reads:
āGod is a construct. Cute girls are real.ā
Thatās not something I can just scroll past bc to me, thatās fu***ng disgusting, especially considering I bought his books & relied on his spiritual & meditative teachings for years, only to find out he was preying on young women & using his cult like leadership to take advantage of them. š¤®
So I emailed the business I received this email from.
Not to attack or shame.
But to say: I love what you stand for, and this felt really misaligned.
Look, am I some privileged, middle-aged white woman changing the world with one email to one tiny local business?
Hell No.
But Iāve had so many conversations where we sit there wondering: what else can we actually do beyond calling representatives, marching, donating, posting, etc?
And I think itās speaking up in the small, everyday moments that are easy to ignore, eye-roll or move on from.
And I say this as someone who has hesitated to speak up more on this platform as Iāve gotten death threats in my DMsā even if I didnāt take them seriously, theyāre still jarring.
But staying quiet doesnāt feel like the answer either.
Because if one message makes one person pauseā¦
If it helps someone realize something they didnāt know or hadnāt consideredā¦
That matters.
At the end of the day weāre are ALL still learning.
Weāre ALL getting things wrong at times.
But if we donāt say anything kindly, clearly, & directly, then nothing shifts.
And we all stay stuck, stunted, & uninformed and therefore in moments like this particular email I received, my step daughters arenāt being protected from sick men weaponizing their power with āwiseā teachings masking their abusive ways.
Say something. Even if itās awkward or uncomfortable.
Awkward & uncomfortable are small prices to pay to protect our girls & ourselves. šŖš»ā¤ļøāš©¹
03/15/2026
My focus lately has mostly been family & rest.
Two things Iāve never put before hustling since my early 20s when I started pursuing acting professionally.
I hesitate to share this because I recognize the privilege of being at a point where I donāt have to hustle.
But wow⦠itās surprisingly hard to unlearn the belief that what I do and how hard I work defines my worth, and is the only way Iāve ever identified having a āpurpose.ā
Itās a fine line because I love chasing big dreams, whether that was acting or building a heartbreak/finding-love coaching business from scratch.
But step-mama over here at 45, after 25 years of hustle, needs some serious rest and time to just BE.
Not comfortable for me.
But necessary.
With 4 stepkids there isnāt much ābeingā time, but in the pockets I do have, I can feel my nervous system letting out a big, cathartic āahhhhh.ā
I donāt know how long Iāll be in this mode.
Maybe until this baby girl turns 18.
Maybe until something hits me over the head that has my soul aching to pursue it.
But right now Iām learning to believe that simply being Larryās wife, the kidsā stepmom, my parentsā daughter, etc., is enough.
I still love the work of growth & self-discovery.
Even now, 5 years shy of 50, Iām having big AHA moments, like finally being diagnosed with ADHD & connecting more dots back to childhood.
That awareness helps me show up for my stepkids with more patience, compassion, & understanding.
The mental health journey isnāt just for you.
Itās for the people you love too.
And the deeper I go into my own healing, the more I realize something I intellectually understood but didnāt truly believe:
Your worth was never supposed to come from how hard you hustle.
And purpose doesnāt only live inside a career.
Sometimes purpose looks like showing up for school projects.
Doctorās appts. Track meets. Homework.
Putting thought & care into their meals instead of half-assing bc of burn out & no time.
Even if you identify as an independent, entrepreneurial-minded feminist.
Sometimes the most meaningful work youāll ever do is simply learning how to be here: softer & more present for both yourself & the people you love. š
I KNOW heartbreak is the worst feeling ever.
Trust me.
Itās why I do what I do after navigating 7 all-consuming heartbreaks in my 20s and 30s.
Youāre not alone.
But thereās a chance youāre not realizing how youāre making it worse:
š By staying in contact with him (apply any gender pronoun that works for you
š By psychoanalyzing his behavior ad nauseam, while driving loved ones away.
š Stalking his next partner and indulging compare and despair
š Trying to change yourself in order to get him back
š Connecting with his friends to get more information.
š Avoiding actually doing the healing work (showing up to therapy without ACTIVELY integrating the work doesnāt do much)
š Bargaining with him. āPlease give me another chance.ā
š Refusing to see the greater lesson in this for yourself
š Reaching out to say āone more thing!ā for āclosureā but then never feel closed
š Telling yourself and your loved ones that itās āreally over this timeā after youāve already given multiple chances.
I DID ALL OF THE ABOVE.
Iām not here to shame you my love.
Iām here to say you can help yourself a lot more.
I know itās really heavy and hard.
But you can do hard.
And if you want my help, comment READY and Iāll get you started your healing journey. ā¤ļø
I did too.
I had so much judgement of myself.
I thought there was something wrong with me that I cared this much about someone who treated me so horribly.
I just wanted to be at peace.
I wanted a magic pill to be over him.
I wanted someone to validate that my deep feelings were warranted.
And I also wanted someoneā God, my therapist, my best friend, my mom, ANYONE - to take the pain away.
And the more I tried and tried, the longer the pain percolatedā¦
So I finally ALLOWED it to be there instead of wrestling with it being there.
I āinvited to Mara to tea.ā
I embraced the pain and gave MYSELF the permission to feel it as long as I needed to feel it.
I became my own mom, best friend, and therapist (even though all of these roles in my life were phenomenal) while still appreciating the external support, and said to myself:
Iāve got you, Claire.
You GET to feel all the pain and we will process it for as long as it takesā¦
People ask me all the time how I finally landed a guy like Larry (the best man for me) and one of my tactics was that I decided I was never going to give up searching for him.
The same went with heartbreak.
I was never going to give up on my commitment to healing.
I wanted a healed life filled with the best romantic love, so I made it a top priority to create that for myself.
If this is you, Iād love nothing more than to be your guide to get you thereā¦
Comment READY if youāre ready to start your healing journey. ā¤ļø
You had a margarita.
Maybe two.
Or you saw a reel you knew heād think was funny.
Or perhaps you just went on a sh*tty date, & it reminded you of how GOOD it was when things were good.
So you unblock him.
Take a peak at his IG profile.
Text him.
Maybe make your own number private (*67 anyone? š¬) and call just to hear him say HELLO?
Oh just me being a lil psycho stalker over here??
(Please take the word psycho as a joke)
Whether any of the above prompted you to connect or put yourself in a position for him (use whatever pronoun applies to you) to reach out or it was something elseā¦
His birthday? Your would-be anniversary?
Youāre back to toxic game, only realizing that he hasnāt changed and your attachment to him lives onā¦
Which ultimately impacts your mental, emotional and physical health yet again.
So how do you stop yourself from what you know isnāt a good idea deep deep down?
HAVE A LIST OF ALL THE HORRIBLE THINGS HE HAS SAID AND DONE.
š The lying
š Gaslighting
š Cheating
š The unwillingness to do any work and point fingers at you
š Separating you from the rest of his life.
š Diminishing you.
š Only showing he cares when he thinks he doesnāt have you the way he wants you.
I know you have plenty more to add to this list. Get specific. Give it to trusted people who will hold you accountable and remind you of how awful it was when youāre experiencing a weak moment of longing.
Which isnāt to be confused with YOU being weak.
Youāre human.
You loved him.
You really wanted him to be who he said he was.
I get it.
But he isnāt that guy, my friend.
And the more you commit to not connecting, the quicker you will heal.
But of course there is sooo much more to this healing process.
It isnāt just cutting contact.
Itās also consciously grieving and learning how to create closure for yourself, WITHOUT getting it from him.
I can help you with that.
If you want to finally move past your heartbreak and find something radically better, comment READY to get started. ā¤ļøāš©¹