Shiné: mind/body/spirit

Shiné: mind/body/spirit

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Yoga & somatic practices for centering, with Katy Hawkins at Chestnut Hill Friends Meeting Live classes: katyhawkins.com
Recorded classes: movingpoetics.com

09/04/2026

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“Stop Thinking & End Your Problems” - Elisa Gabbert
I met a woman with a tumor in her language center. She would think about what she wanted to say, then hear her thought in the voice of the person she was talking to, so it felt like they were reading her mind.

I think there is a name for this, but can’t remember what it is.

I think “clarity” is kind of a poorly defined idea.

I think it would still work with more distance.

I think I pray a lot now; prayer just isn’t what I thought it was.

Whether or not I believe in God (I don’t), “God” is so useful, as language. I can’t think without the word God.

I think we expect too much of people, who are mostly suffering and confused.

I think we make the mistake of thinking that “history” is truer than experience is true.

I think “grateful to be alive” is a feeling you can maintain for one or two days, tops.

I think every well-meaning critique-of-war film will eventually turn into “explosions look beautiful.”

I think if you read a poem, then forget you’ve read it, and then much later you read it again, it really does get better.

I think maybe sadness and happiness are alike, but unhappiness is different.

I think pleasure is a basic human need, but eating isn’t resistance, we just need to eat.

If you order hot tea in a restaurant, I automatically think you’re not very fun.

Crying must release endorphins or something. I wish I could cry for longer.

I think panic is a decent strategy.

I think of it as a very dramatic form of giving up.

I think it’s hard not to experience your life as a thing that happens to you.

I think it’s fooling yourself into thinking you’re thinking.

I do all this mental preparing to the point I think it already happened.

I think it’s largely unconscious, feels like a collective decision, not a chain of events.

I think it’s philosophical and physical and have not gotten a good answer.

Everything reminds me of it, but I don’t know what “it” is.

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08/27/2026

From the poem we explored in class on Monday, “How to Be Alone”

It all begins with knowing
nothing lasts forever,
so you might as well start packing now.
In the meantime,
practice being alive.

There will be a party
where you’ll feel like
nobody’s paying you attention.
And there will be a party
where attention’s all you’ll get.
What you need to do
is to remember
to talk to yourself
between these parties.

And,
again,
there will be a day,
— a decade —
where you won’t
fit in with your body
even though you’re in
the only body you’re in.

You need to control
your habit of forgetting
to breathe.

Remember when you were younger
and you practiced kissing on your arm?
You were on to something then.
Sometimes harm knows its own healing
Comfort knows its own intelligence.
Kindness too.
It needs no reason.

There is a you
telling you another story of you.
Listen to her.

Where do you feel
anxiety in your body?
The chest? The fist? The dream before waking?
The head that feels like it’s at the top of the swing
or the clutch of gut like falling
& falling & falling and falling
It knows something: you’re dying.
Try to stay alive.

For now, touch yourself.
I’m serious.

Touch your
self.
Take your hand
and place your hand
some place
upon your body.
And listen
to the community of madness
that
you are.
You are
such an
interesting conversation.

You belong
here.
-Padraig o Tuama

08/23/2026

Last week was the eclipse bardo and we practiced umbilical tunneling in classes, exploring this poem:

“Prayer should be a tunnel” - Jessica Jacobs
my Hebrew teacher says, and I’m a pigtailed kid again,
descending from a blazing Florida day to the murky depths
of SeaWorld’s Tunnel of Terror: a massive glass

passage through a seawater tank. Sharks glided by,
fins foxed and furrowed as the edges of old treasure maps.
Far above, the inaccessible surface

rippled with a chainmail of light. Prayer should be
a tunnel, she says again, making an O
of her hands and pushing it out before her—my teacher,

also a dancer, uses her body to create structures
in the air. It should take you there, she says. English
is not her first language, but by there, I know

she means God. By tunnel, I think
she means conduit, a direct channel in. A sign
in line had shown a whale teetering atop

one of the tunnel’s glass blocks to demonstrate
its fortitude, to tell me not to be afraid. But I was,
each shark with its hacksaw teeth was clearly meant

for me, and it was only a matter of time before one
gnawed its way through, bringing all the water
rushing in. And what would happen first—

drowning or being devoured? For those, like me, rooted
in terror, a moving sidewalk kept us in motion, easing us
through the eerie underpass, acting

just like time, which moves us without the need for us
to move, which moves us whether or not we want it to.
Prayer should be a tunnel, she says, but what words,

what melody, would let me make with my body
such grand architecture in the air, let me stand
in one place and travel both out and in, let me sink

and not drown, let me wander unafraid
into the open mouth and emerge
unscathed yet changed?

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08/05/2026

Home to this space for making space.
See you tomorrow (Thursday)
9:30 creative flow
11am gentle
“Silence comes to us in grief as the comforter of whom we are afraid, for it invites us more deeply into ourselves, into the dark places in which doubts emerge and pain becomes fully perceptible, where loss can no longer be denied. Silence is the friend who challenges us to be healed when we wish simply to be soothed. It heals us first by making us more empty, carving a space within our hearts.”
- Ellen Davis

07/31/2026

Here’s the expansive portion of the Kunitz poem, with eff-ed up line breaks to accommodate Insta’s limitations of form. Loved playing with the somatics of the Valkyrie in classes yesterday, to embody the thematics of Barbault’s basket. Let’s gooooooo release and renew!!!!!
Turkey vultures 4eva 🪽

Here’s the Nettifee reading:
“The Moon is closely conjunct Pluto, still at 4° of Aquarius, while the Sun is exactly conjunct Jupiter in Leo, making this also a Pluto Jupiter opposition, and a Jupiter cazimi. This cazimi in some ways completes or graduates the “Barbault’s basket” formation that activated mid July. You can read more fully about it in my last post, On Earthly And Cosmic Supports, but essentially all three outer transpersonal planets were at 4° of their respective fire and air signs, all in a harmonious, interlaced series of sextiles and trines. Pluto (evolution) at 4° of Aquarius was opposite Jupiter (faith) at 4° of Leo, defining the edge and opening of the basket. Neptune (creativity) at 4° of Aries and Uranus (freedom) at 4° of Gemini defined the bowl or container. Together they have been creating some of the most supportive astrology we’ve ever seen, and it’s portending a big shift underway, from being in the middle of a time of destruction and dissolution, to being in a time of reconstruction. As Jupiter enters in to the heart of the Sun, it does so under this direct blessing of all these greater, loving, transpersonal forces, and under the direct, intense gaze of Pluto.
This astrology is very profound, and very layered. We are simultaneously getting this culmination of a current of manifestation, and the initiation of a current of liberation in Aquarius, supercharged by the north node and by Pluto, whose transforming medicine has been building here—a clear and intense emphasis on our collective life and well-being, our interconnected nature, our need to heal the myth of heroic individualism and heal supremacy and heal the separation that has created this spiritual emptiness is so many people. We are also getting this renewal of Jupiter in Leo, this massive inspiration and growth of our highest and best selves. It’s saying that even as turn our attention to the collective, this will not be about disappearing into the group. We actually need to show up even more as who we truly are, with our unique vibrations and gifts, with a generosity that comes from self-love and body-love and earth-love and our cup being full in that way. And to do that, the south node will be excavating and healing our wounds around self-expression, anything that makes us not sure we have a right to be here and take up some space.”

07/25/2026

FREE offering for experimenters and poetry-lovers:
I'm dreaming of an experiment in the Skyspace involving this jaw-dropping poem by Matt Moberg. We'll run the closed loop with music backing the reading so people can be still or move around as they feel... well... moved. Let's see what happens when we set poetry and music free in the echoey space. It will last 1 hour. Hit me up with interest and we can work out the timing!
Here's the poem:

I think every human being
eventually has a moment
where they are standing outside in sweatpants
that have lost the will to be pants,
holding a trash bag, a divorce, a parking ticket,
or some other receipt from the universe
that says, “surprise, this too is part of it.”

And then the sky bruises purple.

And the air touches your face
like it knows your whole story.

And suddenly you realize:

all the real is actually unreal.

The dirt.
The breath.
The weird little bones in your hands.
The fact that we are here,
on a floating rock with pollen counts,
paying bills,
missing dead people,
loving living people
who say “leaving now”
while still fully naked and looking for socks.

And still,
the moon clocks in.

No applause.
No benefits.
No note from management saying,
“Great work being ancient and luminous again.”

Just the moon,
working nights
like a single mother with no applause,
packing silver lunches
for every dark thing
that still has to rise.

Tell me that isn’t holy.
Tell me there is a better word
than sacred
for the way light keeps returning
with no guarantee
we will actually stop and take note.

I know people who believe in therapy,
probiotics,
tarot,
twelve-step meetings,
manifestation journals,
and waiting exactly eleven minutes
before texting back
so they do not appear emotionally available,
even though their whole nervous system
is standing in the driveway holding flowers.

And underneath all of it,
every ritual,
every doctrine,
every smoothie with chia seeds,
the prayer is the same:

Please let me be loved.
Please let me be forgiven.
Please let this strange little life
mean something
before my lower back
submits its formal resignation.

What is going on?

For real tho—What is this place?

This unbearable tenderness
of being alive long enough
to watch steam lift from coffee in winter
like a soul practicing leaving.

To see your friend laugh so hard
they slap the table
as if joy is a mosquito
they are trying to kill.

To hear a child say “pisghetti”
and, for one shining second,
realize language
has finally been improved.

I know I already noted this in the first piece,
but the older I get,
the less use I have for certainty.

Certainty has never made me pull over
because the sunset looked like God
dropped a jar of peach jam
across the whole midwestern sky
and decided to be lazy
and not clean up.

Certainty has never made me gasp
at rain on hot pavement.

Certainty has never found me
in the cereal aisle,
holding Captain Crunch,
suddenly remembering
that everyone I have ever loved
was made from stardust,
hunger,
and a series of decisions
we probably should have slept on.

No.
It has always been awe.

Awe was the first church.

Before steeples.
Before committees.
Before men got involved
and started making rules about skirts.

Awe was there
with its wild hair
and muddy feet,
saying:

Look.
Look again.
Look until looking
becomes love.

Awe, and soup.

Awe, and someone rubbing your back
when you are sick.

Awe, and old couples at Target
arguing gently about avocados,
as if marriage is not one vow
but ten thousand errands
performed beside the person
who knows exactly
how you like the cart pushed.

Maybe gratitude
was never meant to sound elegant.

Maybe gratitude sounds like:

“Damn.
That woodpecker is trying
to beat that tree from itself.”

Maybe gratitude sounds like:

“Thank you, body,
for continuing to drag me through this world
despite the many slim jims
I have done to you
at gas stations.”

Maybe gratitude sounds like:

“Thank you to the dogs
who lose their entire minds
when we come home
as if we have returned from war
and not Walgreens.”

For me, that might be my gospel.

That joy that does not wait for us
to be impressive but only needs us
to come through the door.

Because the truth is,
this life is devastating.

And ridiculous.

One minute you are 22 and invincible,
driving too fast,
eating gas station nachos
with the confidence of a Greek god.

The next minute you are googling,
“Can sneezing cause a hamstring injury?”
and the answer is,
apparently,
“Welcome to the second half of your life.”

But even now—

even tired,
even grieving,
even emotionally held together
by iced coffee, playlists,
and one very specific wolves hoodie—

we keep finding reasons
to stay soft.

We plant tomatoes
even though grief is real.

We bake bread
even though the news is on fire.

We send photos of the sky
to people we love
with captions like,
“LOOK,”
as if beauty is an emergency
and we are all volunteer firefighters.

We keep saying,
“You have to see this,”
because wonder
is the oldest form
of resurrection.

So here’s to the believers
and the atheists
and the agnostics
and the people whose entire theology
is just trying not to cry
in the DMV line.

Here’s to the people clinging to faith.

Here’s to the people clinging to Xanax
and oat milk
and the one group chat
where nobody pretends to be okay.

Here’s to the tender-hearted weirdos.

The accidental mystics.

The ones who can contemplate mortality
for six straight hours
and then become emotionally attached
to a perfect peach.

The ones who know
despair has a mouth,
but so does laughter.

May we never stop being drop-kicked by beauty
in the middle of a Sunday afternoon.

May we never become so polished
that we forget how to stand
in the Starbucks line of existence
with our dumb, gorgeous hearts open,
feeling the enormity of it all
rattle around in our bones
like thunder
looking for somewhere to laugh.

And may we remember:

whatever else this is,
whatever mess,
whatever miracle,
whatever cosmic group project
no one was prepped for—

all’ve it is astonishing.
that we are here.
that we have loved enough to be ruined.
that the moon keeps showing up.
that bread exists.

So pass it on.

Tear off a piece
with your bare hands.

Take it in as you take it down.

And then go outside and look at that moon.

Photos from Shiné: mind/body/spirit's post 07/04/2026

Thoughts on this week's experiment: 4 movements for encountering Spirit

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When I encountered Christian mystic Henri Nouwen this week it was like... insta-heart-sweep, if that's a thing. Rebecca Heider dropped a book on the floor, doing her typical post-Gentle-class library organizing, entitled Reaching Out: the Three Movements of the Spiritual Life. (Have you looked in our amazing meetinghouse library? Do you know you can borrow books?)

That damn book kept me up late, then I woke again at 4 to dig back in. The difference between solitude and loneliness, transforming hostility into hospitality, antidotes to the avoidance of the void... SO. Good. The book is structured simply, in 3 parts/stages:
1. reaching out to our innermost self
2. reaching out to our fellow human beings
3. reaching out to our God

It reminded me of the "I am Here" exercise we sometimes practice at Shiné. It's based on a practice from Gurdjieff movements, on opening the three parts of self: mind, heart, and body. There is a distinct movement for each of the 3 parts, and a 4th movement for neutral. Then the practitioner shuffles through them while repeating the three words - I am here - creating a typically Gurdjieffian mental puzzle of 4 movements and 3 words. In workshops on Embodied Quakerism, I offer this to people as an exercise where we first learn Gurdjieff's version, then play with creating our own movement sequence, based on three things we feel we need for centering.

This practice has been very alive for me, so I brought a new version on Thursday, dividing the class into four segments and sequencing in a way that embodied four stages of preparation that bubbled up in response to Nouwen : stirring, stilling, opening, and sharing. I chose a poem for each, which companioned our movement play. I promised I'd send the poetry mash-up, so here they are!

PS - If you're into stuff like this, you might be into some workshops I'm launching on embodied Quakerism. Please reach out and I'll put you on the mailing list for The Center for Centering. Offerings at The Center will be more explicitly spiritual and less physically demanding than the work we do together. Although the angle will be Quaker, these workshops are open to spiritual seekers from any tradition, including agnostics and atheists who are curious about embodiment as a way towards spiritual deepening.
PPS - please note these poems are fragments, and the line breaks got messed up trying to work with insta formatting.

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06/28/2026

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06/19/2026

ADDED SESSION 6/24 - likely the last one this summer, as we will be hosting Family Promise in July and August.
Come circle up to enjoy 90 minutes of soothing restorative postures, with plenty of hands-on TLC. Relaxing poses - supine, seated, and belly-down - are held for 3-10 minutes, supported by props like squishy bolsters, blankets and yoga blocks. You’ll receive hands-on attention from Katy - a combo of reiki, massage, and yoga assists. Weather dependent, the doors will be open to the summer air. Birdsong. Crickets.
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