10/12/2020
Happy National Coming Out Day to ALL MY LGBTQ+ 🏳️🌈 friends who are out and those who are not yet out!
Coming out was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done in my life! I was outed at a young age and struggled with finding a way to accept myself due to being told my whole life that if I was gay, Jesus didn’t love me, there was something wrong with me and feeling I was unworthy of love. I battled with myself, went through countless hours of counseling during which I was told I needed to “turn away from my sin”! I lost many relationships some of which have been repaired and some of which have not! All I can say is, the only greater love than the one I have with .m_s is the love Jesus has for both of us! I am so grateful that I was brave enough to love fearlessly (ps I got that phrase tattooed on my foot for my 21st birthday)! I am so glad I got the chance to love Sydney and that I get to spend the rest of my life with her! I hope as we continue to grow older that our world becomes more loving, more accepting, more open to this beautiful love! I am gay, I am OUT and I am PROUD! Happy National Coming Out Day! 🌈 ***an
10/04/2020
So much fun surprising my mommy today! She’s my favorite person and I’m so happy we got to shower her with love and celebration ❤️
08/30/2020
What a year 26 has been. WOW! All I can really say is I’m grateful! This year has stretched me and I know it is continuing to stretch us all, but being uncomfortable creates growth. The growth I have seen in myself this year is like nothing before. I feel I have truly been able to BLOOM 🌸 like never before.
26 has given me the gift of myself, learning about myself, healing from my past trauma, taking care of myself and having the opportunity to truly think about who I am and who I want to be, as well as the gift of marrying the love of my life .am_syd and being able to be my full and present self with HER! I feel so strong, so sure, and so at peace and for that I am so grateful and blessed! Here’s to another year around the sun! 🌞 Thank you to everyone who posted, texted, called and hung out with me today! I wouldn’t be me without you and you have all given me the strength to push myself to heal!💕
I also want to say if you’ve been waiting to take care of that health issue, see that doctor, apply for that job, go see that therapist, THIS IS YOUR SIGN NOW JUST DO IT! Thank me later ❤️ @ Pacific Beach- Ocean Front
08/12/2020
The Joshua Tree symbolizes the strength and beauty that can arise from dysfunction. The Joshua Tree which grows in adverse conditions, is known as a symbol of faith and hope in the midst of aridity. The tree’s unique shape reminded Morman settlers crossing the Mojave Desert of the biblical story when Joshua reached his hands up to the sky in prayer.
I don’t know how else to communicate this other than to say that our elopement day was magical. It was out of this world and it was our redemption from all the challenging times we have had throughout our relationship. I feel healed! This is my reminder of the magic 💫 of that day and that Sydney and I have together!
05/05/2020
GUYS.......I’m so proud!!!! 💕
She’s my bestie, she was the first person to join me on this journey and she is almost finished a 💯 DAY WORKOUT PROGRAM! And she did FOUR 1 LEGGED BURPEES TODAY! So proud of her and happy to have her as my best friend and on my team ❤️🙌🏽
The next 30 days, 50 days, 80 days or 💯 days are going to pass you by, whether you are in quarantine or not, you can be working on YOU! Why not start today? Message me or complete the application in the comments if you are ready to get started! 💕💕
05/05/2020
I can’t go to sleep without posting this! I had the best weekend! My best friend was the most beautiful bride at her quarantine/social distanced elopement wedding! I love her, I love her husband, I love my Godbabies and I loved everything about their day! Love is all around! 💕Find friends that become family! The End and Goodnight 💤😘😴
05/04/2020
Today I feel accomplished!
I feel like I am finally starting to get a grip on my morning routine and stick to the plan I put in place! For a few weeks, I was struggling. 😭 This pandemic hasn’t made it easy for me to be disciplined to get up in the morning and I was rolling out of bed and sitting in front of the computer for another day of WFH 🙋🏽♀️ Basically I was miserable. I wasn’t working out I didn’t eat all day then binged food while binge watching tv every night, but this all changed 2 weeks ago because I went back to basics.
My 🔑To A Good Morning
1. Accountability
2. Routine
3. Consistency
I went back to what I know works every time. I created a plan with my coach for accountability (she texts me every morning to get up and workout, then we do it together on Zoom) WHO DOESN’T NEED THAT? I know I do! 💕 I started focusing on gratitude each morning and fueling my body and now I am slowly but surely beginning to feel like me again!
What has been your biggest struggle throughout this pandemic and how have you worked to overcome it? Drop a 🙋🏽♀️in the comments if you need help answering this question and getting back to you! 💕
05/02/2020
For My Best Friend On Her Wedding Day💕
I don’t think I know where to begin. First, let me say I love you. You are resilient, strong willed, patient and so very giving. You know what hard looks like and you have stuck through the hard in so many areas of your life and each time you come out better and stronger. This relationship with Lavar, your almost husband, has been such a journey and it is a journey I am so privileged to have been a part of. Please continue to forgive quickly and to love with all you have. The two of you are an amazing couple and even better parents. I am in awe of both of you and your relationship with one another! I am so blessed by your friendship and your ability to support me in my relationship even when I felt no one else did. You are forever our OG Bestie and our ride or die! I promise that I will continue to be a support to you and Var throughout your journey of marriage and parenthood and to stand by you as you have for Sydney and I! I love you with all my heart ❤️ Happy Wedding Day!
05/01/2020
Tomorrow is 𝕄𝕒𝕪 1st and I want to talk about my goals, but I have this issue that when I don’t meet them in the timeframe I have set for myself, I feel like I’m a 𝔽𝔸𝕀𝕃𝕌ℝ𝔼.
𝔽𝔸𝕀𝕃𝕌ℝ𝔼 does not mean you failed it means you are 𝕋ℝ𝕐𝕀ℕ𝔾. 𝕋ℝ𝕐𝕀ℕ𝔾 means you are 𝕃𝔼𝔸ℝℕ𝕀ℕ𝔾. 𝕃𝔼𝔸ℝℕ𝕀ℕ𝔾 means you are 𝕊𝕌ℂℂ𝔼𝔼𝔻𝕀ℕ𝔾 and 𝔾ℝ𝕆𝕎𝕀ℕ𝔾.
I am going to continue to look at this year as my year of 𝔾ℝ𝕆𝕎𝕋ℍ and fail forward learning to trust myself as I work towards my 𝔻ℝ𝔼𝔸𝕄𝕊 and 𝔾𝕆𝔸𝕃𝕊 💕
📸 .marie.collectives
04/26/2020
Today I feel proud.
I finished week 1 of my 10 week fitness program and stuck to my nutrition plan this week including a Friday treat of pizza 🍕 I feel like I needed this more than ever RIGHT NOW in this moment.
Everything is so uncertain and unknown and in order to find some peace I have taken control of what I am able to control. My mood is better, my outlook is different, and the bad days are a little more bearable. I hope you are finding some peace in this challenging time and if you need some support please feel free to reach out to me! 💕
04/23/2020
Let me your feed with footage from my trip that I took to AZ 1 week before quarantine! I’m telling you that filling your cup with people who make you better is soooo beyond important and I am so glad we made it on this trip before all of this. 💕
Quarantine is making me miss traveling (and my bestie who is all the way in Cali) 😭😭
Where is the first place you want to visit when COVID-19 ends?? ✈️