Eszti Fitness

While I thought I can leave every nightmare behind me , life said “Hey Eszti, hold my beer”!Im back here where I thought I never ever have to be . Not because I have the cancer back , but it’s because Doctors doesn’t want me to get it back , so he decided to keep continuing my treatment. A bit different, but still causing hair loss and nausea and all that crap I already went through and I thought I’m done . Nope . Finally my hair started to grow back and so thick and shiny and I love it . Well, here comes boldness again. I will try to keep positive but it’s hard when you don’t know how long you have to deal with this kind of thing. A year ? 5 years ? Forever ? There is something about cancer that nobody really prepares you for. Yes, your life changes, but what catches you off guard is realizing everyone else’s life keeps moving while yours suddenly feels like it’s standing still.

Your friends are getting married, having babies, changing jobs, planning vacations, and complaining about Monday mornings. Meanwhile, you’re sitting in a waiting room wondering what your blood work is going to say or counting down the days until your next scan.

For a while, it can feel like someone hit the pause button on your life while everyone else just kept pressing play. If you’ve ever caught yourself feeling jealous of someone else’s “normal” life, please don’t beat yourself up over it. That doesn’t make you selfish. It makes you human.

The funny thing is, the people you’re comparing yourself to are probably looking at someone else’s life thinking they have it all figured out too. We all carry things that other people can’t see. Cancer just happens to be one of the struggles that’s a little harder to hide.

If today feels heavy, try not to compare your life to what you see everyone else posting. Social media is a highlight reel, not the whole story. Keep showing up however you can. Some days that looks like crossing off a to-do list. Other days it looks like simply getting out of bed. Both count.

P.S : I’m just talking to myself, keeping myself positive.