Goen Strong

I have a little bit of a different type of flex this week. Although I will include a traditional “check me out flex(because well I’m still proud)”, I have a way more important to me flex.

If you look at the girl on the left, notice the angle of the camera, the smirk, and the lack of energy in those eyes. This picture was taken at my heaviest weight and my lowest emotional point. I rarely held my head high, my social anxiety was horrific and I had no confidence. It hurts me to look at those eyes and feel any sense of the pain I used to deal with daily, both emotionally and physically.

The picture on the right is the person I have worked so hard to become and put so much effort into. Yes you can see the physical changes, the jaw line, the cheek bones, all of those due to my weight loss. But do you see the smile in those eyes? Or the angle change where that held is held higher?

13 months I have worked so hard to change not just my physical appearance, but my mentality too. Mentally I have changed. Mentally I am stronger.

You are worth every ounce of effort. You are worth all of the hard work. All of the tears. All of the sweat. All of the blood (I am clumsy and it has happened). Feel every emotion. Take it in. Sit with it. Be uncomfortable. And embrace the process of change and growth 🖤



**And of course a few physical flexes… because … proud**

2 week countdown to my 1 year mark 🖤 final stretch for the first year down. Already setting goals and prepping to crush new s**t in year 2 🏋🏻‍♀️🙌🏻 April 2021 to April 2022

because be confident in yourself and celebrate every effort 🖤

Word of the day: Determination

Believe you can. Say it out loud. Speak it into existence. Because if you do not believe it, others may struggle to as well. When the road gets hard, you don’t quit. You work harder and you earn what’s at the end of it. When it gets tiring, you don’t give up. Find that second gear, buckle down, and go. Believe you can, believe you will, and fu***ng make it happen 🖤

Happy Tuesday all 🖤

Do both. Be both. Work for both 🖤🙌🏻

Sometimes it’s ok to post the damn picture and be proud of who you are and who you have fought to become. 10 months into my journey. I am not perfect. I am not nearly done. But damn am I starting to love me and the person I fight every day to become 💪🏼💋 Mentally, physically, and emotionally I am fighting to be a different better more confident me every day.

Fight for it. Show up. Get that s**t done 💪🏼🖤

Word of the day: Powerful

Having power is not a bad thing. Having control is not a bad thing. Being powerful in both mental and physical characteristics are such tools and resources. Take control, find purpose, guide your own direction. And when all else fails… lift heavy s**t 🙌🏻🖤

Happy Monday all!

Words of Affirmation to end your night on:

You are strong. You are powerful. And you deserve all that you work hard to obtain. Show up and fight for yourself 🖤

So what started this journey? What was my tipping point?

My daughter is a competitive gymnast. I wanted to get more involved in her world, so I applied for a job at her gym. It was a float roll, so some front desk work and I was going to learn to also coach some classes too. I was so excited. I trained for a few front desk shifts and then it was time to get out on the floor.

I got there that night, excited to start working with these girls, and learning myself. But I quickly realized I was unprepared. I had a hard time with simple things like stretching. I struggled with spotting on simple maneuvers because I did not have the strength to do it. It felt crummy leaving that night. I felt like I had made the wrong choice taking the job. I went out on the floor one or two more times, struggled again, and learned that the preschool littles and front desk were a more appropriate place for me to be.

Even making that realization, it was not quite enough. It was going to take one more incident, a life altering one, to give me the push I need to change my life and my story. What was the push?Stay tuned for part two 🖤🙌