09/10/2026
It’s been 7 years, today, since a nadir in my path changed everything.
A nadir is a low point, rock bottom, and mine was a panic attack on the beach after a long day at work.
A low that became a turning point. After years of ignoring the quiet voice asking for more, and sacrificing my dreams and needs for a career, I couldn't continue.
That panic attack scared me, and it became the beginning of a new, pinnacle path - my adventure to uncover my happy life guided by my heart.
What made it all change?
The fear of uncertainty - what would happen if I left my job, how will I earn money, what if I can’t figure it out… was replaced by the fear of what I was experiencing as my new certainty - having a panic attack and worrying about where my mental health was heading.
Certainty and uncertainty traded places that night. Certainty became a scary place to be and uncertainty became endless possibilities, anything that I wanted it to be - exciting.
An essay I wrote a year ago that was long-listed for the Wild Muse Nature Prize shares more about that night and how I entered a liminal space with nature that helped me see this guidance. DM or comment below for the link.
Curiously I’ve been having this same conversation with women in their late 30s to mid 40s a lot recently. Connecting over being caught in this uncomfortable place of wanting change but not knowing how and worrying about what everyone else, and the challenges of change alongside responsibilities.
As we talk I share a little of my journey, and listen to the challenges of where they are now. It brings me so much joy (and I hope comfort for them) to now be able to hold someone else through this scary life transition - something I so desperately needed 7 years ago.
If this sounds like you right now, I'd love to hold space for you. I have one opening for a 1:1 In To Heart journey beginning this October. DM to begin with a complimentary 45-minute call, with no obligation, simply a chance to talk it through. If it eases your path even a little, it will have been time well spent.
With love,
Amanda