15/05/2026
Five months into this year, and it feels like a haze. At the same time, it feels as though I’ve aged a hundred years in these past five months alone.
The amount of trauma I’ve experienced — personally, and collectively as an Iranian — is enough for a hundred lifetimes. If you’ve never had to live through what Iranians have been feeling and enduring for the past 47 years, and especially this year, I envy you. I envy a life where the biggest anguish of the day is deciding where to buy lunch or what to wear to an event this weekend.
Iranians wake to the news of yet another ex*****on carried out at dawn, to the sound of the morning prayer. Death after death after death. Lives destroyed. Futures shattered. And perhaps the most devastating part is feeling like no one gives a s**t.
I’ve lost countless friendships this year. I’ve felt isolated from people I once felt deeply connected to.
But like the lotus flower that blooms from the mud, I’m finding my way back to myself. I’ve always done this through the practice of breath and movement — through the practice of coming home to myself.
Even as the practice invites me to sit and breathe through my anger and sadness, I let my anger move me into action, wherever I can find that action. Fighting for another day.
I refuse to lose hope.